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Band: Kra Pairing: Keiyu&Mai Rating: 14+ Genre: romance, comedy Warnings: - Note: Keiyu likes walking in the rain, but he'd lik...

Wednesday 26 May 2021

White Ribbon

Band: Gazette&Nightmare
Pairing: Reita&Ni~ya
Rating: 14+
Genre: comedy, romance
Warnings: -
Note: Ni~ya wanna take off the white ribbon from Reita's face...



Ni~ya was sitting in the dressing room. They had to play few songs on NHK and after that they could go home. Oh yes. Home. Go away from all those bands of which half he doesn't know and the other half he doesn't like. But one band wouldn't let him rest. Their music was heavy but their look completely didn't fit them. Ni~ya smiled, which sparked interest between his bandmates. That description also fits Nightmare. But Naitomea didn't have... Exactly. What? Ni~ya knew well, what was missing in his band. Or rather who.

Anyway, love was always in the air. First, Ruka and Sakito, where the first one went out for a cigarette fifteen minutes earlier and hasn't come back yet, announcent, they're together. Now Yomi and Hitsugi were glancing at each other once in a while, but in a way the other one wouldn't notice. There was also this person, who Ni~ya really needed here. This person, whose world was hidden behind a white ribbon. Or maybe it was protecting him from the world? What if one were to take it off...

„Yuji, you're having those thoughts that make you feel hot again, but before live you should calm down a little, huh?” he scolded himself in his thoughts.

Ni~ya stood up and went out from the dressing room, not telling anything anybody. Then he heard a voice. Voice belonging to someone, who shouldn't speak in his company, who shouldn't even be here in the first place.

"Ni~ya-san, why are you by yourself? Without your band?"

Ni~ya turned around. In front of him stood Reita, bassist of the GazettE.

"Hello, Reita-kun." finally said Ni~ya, while trying to remain calm.

Calm?! Reita was standing in front of him! I Ni~ya saw his beautiful, deep black eyes. And how should he remain calm in front of someone so attractive?

"Something happened?" Reita came closer and played with his hair.

"N-no." answered Ni~ya stepped back for a safe distance.

"Your hair color is nice." said Reita.

"Thanks." replied Ni~ya.

"I'll be going now." said Reita. "Good luck. See you later."

And he walked away lewaing poor Yuiji in confusion.

* * *

Ni~ya walked into hotel room. He didn't want to be here. It wasn't his cosy flat, to which he would like to come back to. He lied on the bed and tried to collect his thoughts. Strangely behaving Reita, suspiciously looking at each other Yomi and Hitsugi and Sakito and Ruka in love with each other... Ruka in love... It was so weird...

Knock on the door.

"Yes?" Ni~ya opened the door.

He looked down. Yomi was standing in front of him.

"Can I sit here for a while?" asked Yomi. "There is a very horny couple staying in a room next to mine and they won't last a moment without making love with each other."

"You can't go to Hitsugi?"

"No, I can't." replied Yomi and went inside, not waiting for invitation.

"So go to Sakito or Ruka." suggested Ni~ya.

"They would rather be left alone." said Yomi, carelessly lying on the bed. "Ruka is in Sakito's room and they are watching some romantic comedy and they'll most propably end up lika that couple next to my room."

"Yomi, pretty please, please stop talking about what are you neighbours doing." Ni~ya tried to remain calm. "And it would be best if you went out of my room, because I need to be alone."

"But Ni~ya, please." Yomi fluttered his eyelashes. "Pretty please."

"Okay, if you really want to." sighted Ni~ya and then sat on a couch.

" Ni~ya, why you always behave so weirdly after NHK?" asked after a while Yomi.

Yuji looked at him, surprised.

"Why are you asking?"

"Because always when we appear on NHK, you're always distant and pensive." answered Yomi. "You fell in love with someone?"

"Why can't you go to Hitsugi?" replied Ni~ya.

Yomi opened his mouth, like he was trying to say something, but closed them after a while. It became silent.

Suddenly the door opened. There was someone small and thin in sunglasses standing in the doorway.

"I went into wrong room?" he spoke with manly voice, looking over his sunglasses. "I'm sorry."

And he dissapeared.

"Was that Gazette's vocalist or I'm seeing things?" asked Yomi.

"It was Gazette's vocalist." whispered Ni~ya.

If Gazette's vocalist is here, that means...

Ni~ya stood up gustily.

"Where are you going?" asked Yomi.

"Not important, stay here." ordered Ni~ya and ran outside.

"What am I? A dog?" sighted Yomi.

Ni~ya didn't hear him though.

* * *

Ni~ya was standing in the hallway and looked for... That vocalist guy. What was his name? Ruki? Yes, something like that. Okay, where's this tiny, but not as tiny as Yomi, screaming on stage guy, hidden right now behind his sunglasses?

He noticed him. He was looking through the window, like he's been thinking about something.

"Ruki-kun?" he was hoping he's not mistaken.

"Hm?" Ruki stopped contemplating. "Oh, Ni~ya-san. It was yours room, that I went into?"

"Yes, but..." Ni~ya started to think of something he should say "I've fallen in love with your bassist". This sounds stupid!

"Why are you standing here?"

"Because I got lost and forgot phone from my room." said Ruki. "And I don't know, where should I go."

"Oh, right." understood Yuji.

"Oh, Ruki, we were looking for you!" suddenly heard Ni~ya.

This voice...

"Reita, it's so nice to see you." called Ruki. "What number does my room have?"

"205." answered sluggishly Reita. "Uh, tell others that I'm tired and I went to sleep, okay?"

"Walk you to your room?" offered Ruki.

"No, you don't have to." replied Reita.

Ruki walked down the stairs.

Reita without his make up and nose band and with his hair undone. That wasn't Reita, that was... Right. What was his real name?

"What are you doing?" finally said Ni~ya.

"You see, I didn't break my head over getting out information about place where you stayed from your not so talkative drummer, only for standing in the hallway." explained Reita, getting closer towards Ni~ya. "I gave him some romantic comedy movie, so he could watch it with his Sakito."

"You gave him that movie?" wondered Ni~ya.

"Yes, it was a bribe." Reita got even closer to Yuji.

Ni~ya suddenly felt a wall behind him, so he had nowhere to run.

"And I did persuade Kai for us to stop here, so I could have opportunity to meet you, Yuji."

"How do you know my name?" asked Ni~ya.

"Oh, Yuji." Reita smiled seductively. "Hotel's adress wasn't only thing I got out of Ruka."

He kissed him. Now the wall behind him wasn't much of a problem. He embraced Reita and gave back his kiss. They moved from each other after a while.

"By the way, I'm Suzuki." said Reita. "And your eyes are really beautiful."

"Thank you." Ni~ya smiled lightly. "Suzu, could you step back a little? You see, I don't like being pinned to a wall."

"Why?"

"Because I feel like some kind of uke." replied Ni~ya.

"And who told you I would let you be seme?"

"Suzuki!"

"Niuniu, easy." Reita smiled. "Why so angry?"

"Niuniu?" Ni~ya looked at him amused. "Kinda cute."

"So, Yuji?" Reita smiled seductively again. "Yours room or mine?"

"There's a doggy in mine." said Ni~ya, actually hearing Yomi's words.

Reita looked at him confused and grabbed his hand, then went with him to his room.

The end

Wednesday 19 May 2021

Mitsukai

Band: ViViD&SuG
Pairing: Shin&Mitsuru
Rating: 14+
Genre: comedy, romance
Warnings: -
Note: Mitsukai means "angel" in Japanese in case someone doesn't know. It's synonym of "tenshi". And that Mitsukai/Tenshi likes Shin's dreams.



It all started, when he was seeing her every day. In shop, when he went to the studio, for band practice, anywhere. Coincidence? Or maybe fate? Propably the later, because he started to see her in his dreams. But she always disappeared, when he wanted to get close to her, so after few times, he realised it's not "she", it's "he". Yes, beautifull young boy. He named him Mitsukai, because he appeared as an angel in his dreams. Bandmates said, Mitsukai desn't exist, because he disappeared so quickly, they couldn't see him. Sometimes Shin doubted himself. But one time, Ryoga saw Angel by accident. But he disappeard as fast as usual. Since that day they wondered, why he's afraid of them. Especially the musicians from major bands. One time, when Shin was passing by Kai on the street, Mitsukai almost broke his legs running away from them. And when vocalist met Takeru in a shop, he crashed into a pile of tomato soup cans, threw cassier almost all money from his wallet and dissapeared. He did it so fast SuG's vocalist didn't even notice that and still went on about Rainbow Bunny from some cartoon or Rainbow Bunny's Rainbow Scooter. Shin quickly got rid of Takeru, but he did not catch Angel.

One evening he was going back home and saw him again. Mitsukai had his hair tied in a ponytail, like he used to, and his black eyes were looking somewhere else, when he was walking on the other side of the street. Shin thought he can finally catch Angel and at least ask him about his name. And he felt that strange feeling, that he saw him somewhere. He went to the other side of the street. Mitsukai turned around, hearing his footsteps, with fear in his eyes.

"No, wait! I only want to talk with you!" called Shin, but Mitsukai already started to run.

Shin sighted and started to chase him, but he lost him again.

He stopped. Then looked into the stars. That person irritated him with the way he was uncatchable. Then he felt someone's presence.

"Shin, what are you doing here?" asked Iv, approaching his a little tired friend. "You were chasing that Angel of yours again?"

"Yes." replied Shin and turned around, now facing the bassist. "Why he's so afraid of me?"

"He's afraid of everyone from PSC." explained Iv. "That's really weird."

"Where's Ko-ki? You two are alway together." noticed Shin.

"I made him sleeping tea." answered Iv.

"So?" vocalist calmed down. "He fell asleep?"

"Yeah, he's asleep." Iv sighted. "I can rest at least for one evening. You know, that tea is really usefull if you're with somebody as horny as Kouki."

"You're creping me out sometimes." said Shin.

"Yeah, I know." Iv smiled. "Walk you to your home?"

"No, I'm gonna go to the park." replied Shin.

Iv noded, then waved him good-bye. Vocalist went in his direction.

When he was approaching the park, and all he had to do was to cross a street, he heard a voice.

"Shin, look out!" somebody called.

Vocalist snapped out from his daydreaming, to look for that person, who called him, only to see bright light of an incoming car...

* * *

Shin someone's arm wrapping around him, then he rolled with that someone to the sidewalk. He blinked. He saw pair of scared eyes belonging to no one other than his Angel. Car, that almost hit him, didn't even stop.

"Mitsukai?" asked Shin, sitting on a sidewalk.

"Shin, could you watch for yourself a little more?" asked Angel with a low voice. "And don't scare me so much?"

"You're afraid of me anyway." said Shin.

"It's not like that." disagreed Mitsukai. "I'm scarred that if someone from PSC sees me, they'll tell Takeru that I didn't leave the town and he'll start coming to my house again. And he'll want to... You know, what that pervert wants, right? And he's not gentle. Believe me. That's why I left the band. To run away from that idiot."

"You're Mitsuru?" asked Shin.

Now he knew, why he seemed familiar to him.

"Right, you're from ViViD, so you didn't know me for too long." noticed Mitsuru

"You were running away from me, because I'm from PSC?" it only came across to Shin. "Takeru is a complete idiot. I would never give you away! I also know that he's more horny than Ko-ki. You think he came only to you?"

"I thought so." said Mitsuru. "Good you didn't agree, you'd regret this. I spent one night with him and then he thinks I'm his property."

"No wonder you left the band." said Shin. "Wanna walk with me around the park?"

"If you want to." Mitsuru smiled and gave Shin his hand, to help him get up.

They were walking for a few minutes, but only now, Mitsuru decided to speak first.

"Why did you want to talk with me so much?" he asked.

Shin looked at him, embarassed.

"You wouldn't wonder, why someone is running away from you?" he replied.

"At some point I'd begon to wonder." answered Mitsuru.

"At some point you stopped running away, when it was just me." noticed Shin. "Today, you ran away from Ivu, right?"

Mitsuru stopped. He looked at Shin and smiled lightly.

"You know, I wanted to approach you." he said, then started to walk again. "But I was afraid, you'll tell about me Takeru."

"Takeru is a fool." repeated Shin. "You need to be treated gently, like a delicate precious."

"Precious?" asked Mitsuru. "What are you trying to tell me?"

"That since one of those days I saw you in a shop, you're appearing in my dreams." answered Shin and looked Mitsuru straight in the eyes. "Is it enough, or do I have to say something about you angelic beauty?"

They stopped. Wind got stronger and messed aroung with hair of both calm Shin and shocked Mitsuru.

"Mitsukai, you do exist and you're standing in front of me." whispered Shin, embracing Mitsuru. "Your name is Mitsuru and you were SuG's drummer. I knew about you for so long, but fate just now crossed our paths."

"I can tell, you're vocalist." also whispered Mitsuru. "But is Mitsuru really my name?"

"I hope I'll know it soon." Shin played with drummer's hair.

He smiled lightly and kissed him. Mitsuru embraced Shin in his waist and gave back his kiss. He stepped back, looking at him for a while, the he was the one kissing him.

When they both were already lying ona a couch in Shin's home, and playing with eachother's hair, they comepletely forgot that few hours earlier they didn't knew their real names, ans vocalist did not know, who's his Angel.

* * *

Shin went into practice room, humming "Precious". Rest of the band looked at him surprised.

"Why are you so happy?" asked Ryoga. Shin smiled lightly.

"Let's just say I found my way to heaven." he replied.

"You'll be in hell if we won't start now." said Reno.

"I'd doubt I'll let that happen." said Mitsuru, while standing in the doorway.

"B...b...but...it's...Mitsuru?" mumbled Reno, not knowing what to do with himself.

"Mitsuru is your Angel?" asked Ko-ki, who was feeling drowsy, behind his drumset.

Maybe Iv made him that tea again.

"Yeah." Shin smiled again. "He can stay here, right?"

"If he won't defocus you." Reno shrugged.

Mitsuru sat on the couch, having his eyes set on Shin.

Suddenly, the door opened wide. Takeru without question barged in.

"Mitsuru, you're alive. How cool." Takeru smiled in a little perverted way.

Mitsuru curled, like he was trying to protect himself.

"Takeru, go away." Shin approached Takeru and looked at him from above.

"Shin, what's going on?" Reno was completely confused.

"Your stupid vocalist claimed what's mine." explained Takeru.

Shin sighted, turned around, then hit Takeru with his fist at full force. SuG's vocalist lost his balance and fallen on the floor, touching his injured lip after a while. Mitsuru stood up and run to Shin, who was still shaking, while rest of ViViD froze in shock.

"Mitsuru is not your property." said Shin. "He's not a thing. He's a living human. You should finally learn to respect people's feelings. Now go away as I told you to."

"I... I... I... yes." Takeru got up quickly, and gone so fast, he almost hit the door.

Shin sighted deeply and smilled a liitle teasingly.

"Something tells me, Mitsukai, that Takeru won't get close to you anymore." he said to Mitsuru. "So? Shall we start that practice?"

Reno only noded his head.

The end

Wednesday 12 May 2021

Dream of Light Blue Rose

Band: D
Pairing: Asagi&Ruiza
Rating: 14+
Genre: comedy, romance
Warnings: -
Note: Ruiza can't sleep, Asagi is walking in dreams, Hiroki and Tsune are plotting...



Takahiro Ogawa – person, who each day made Ruiza shiver with emotions. His black hair, black eyes and slim silhouette wouldn't let sleep poor guitarist. So he was laying in his bed, thinking about him all the time. Yes, Asagi was his unfulfilled, unreachable dream. At least it seemed so.

He went on a balcony. He had to breath in some fresh air. Wind played with his hair. It was 3 AM and he still couldn't sleep. After a while he heard a sound of door being oppened and silent footsteps. He turned around. Asagi was standing there, starring somewhere absentmindedly.

"Asagi?" Ruiza approached him and waved his hand before his eyes. Vocalist didn't react. "Asagi, what's going on? Say something, please."

Vocalist was only standing there, not speaking and moving, only looking somewhere. Then he turned around and layed down on bed, covering himself with quilt, leaving Ruiza confused. Guitarist was standing there for a while, when it his him – Asagi is sleepwalking! He's a sleepwalker! He's asleep! But how to wake im up? Or maybe don't wake him up at all and lay in bed with him? Possibily of spending night next to Asagi made Ruiza smile. Guitarist got under the quilt.

Someone shaking him woke him up. When he got himself together, he realise, he's sitting, and those things painfully piercing his armsturned out to be Asagi's fingers.

"What are you doing here?" asked vocalist.

Ruiza looked at him, pretending to be surprised.

"I'm sleeping." he replied. "I should be the one asking that. That's my room, Asagi."

"Your?" asked Takahiro, and looked around.

Then he made a face so embarassed, he reminded Ruiza of Kagrra,'s Shin.

"Yes, Asagi. That's my room." repeated Ruiza, smiling lightly. "And my arms, which you pierced with your fingers."

"Sorry." Asagi stood up quickly and approached the balcony. "I left my balcony door open, so I can safely get to my room."

"How?" asked Ruiza.

Clock on the wall showed 5 AM. He slept for one hour and a half. It's still longer than usual.

"I'll go from your balcony to mine" explained Asagi.

"Why won't you go through the door?" asked Ruiza.

"What do you think, those detectives will say, when I'll go out from your room like that, Yoshiyuki?" asked Asagi, then he froze for a moment, when he realised, he called Ruiza by his real name.

"That you sleepwalked into my room by accident?" Ruiza said how it really went, trying to stay calm, while he could still hear his name being said by Asagi.

"How do you know I'm sleepwalking?" asked Asagi.

"I didn't know, but thanks for informing me." lied Ruiza and smiled lightly.

Asagi got embarassed again and came back to his room through the balcony.

* * *

Ruiza was standing on the terrace and looking at the scene. He wasn't needed yet, because technicians had to set up everything. He still heard his name resoning in his head. „Yoshiyuki”. Why Asagi called him that? He never called him by his name, he called him „Rui-chan” at most. Ruiza didn't understand why vocalist went to his room. If he's a sleepwalker, his subconciusness made him go to there. When he was thinking about all that, he heard a familiar voice.

"Why are you standing here?" Tsunehito approached him and leaned on a barrier. "All by yourself?"

"What are you talking about?" Ruiza looked at him.

"About some Light Blue Rose." replied sophisticadely Tsunehito.

Ruiza understood anyway what he was talking about. Or rather, who.

"Why him?" asked guitarist, looking at bassist with confusion.

Tsune smiled lightly.

"Ruiza, I'm not blind." he said. "I see what's going on. And I see you're not sleeping well. Do something about it or you'll faint on a stage. Just like your Rose."

"Like if that was easy." sighted Ruiza.

It wasn't. It was really hard.

"I'll go now. Hang in there." Tsunehito smiled lightly and walked away, leavng Ruiza alone with his thoughts.

Asagi was standing by the wall and counting scratches on a celling. He had so much things to do, yet all he was thinking about was Ruiza, his room and his bed. He alwas sleepwalked, when he wanted to do something, but didn't had the courage to. He just did it in his sleep. Suddenly he felt someone poking his arm.

"Why are you standing like that?" asked Hiroki. "Don't you have something to do?"

"Yes, I have." agreed Asagi.

"But you were thinking about our Princess again?" asked Hiroki, smiling.

"Princess?" asked Asagi.

He never thought about calling Ruiza that.

"Yes, our Princess with guitar got you head over heels. Asagi, only stupid wouldn't notice, what's going on. No offense towards Ruiza, who's the only one not knowing about the situation. I know you a little and I see the way you look at him. Tell him. He won't get mad."

"It's not that easy." said Asagi.

"You'll be fine." Hiroki patted his arm and walked away, leaving Asagi alone with his thoughts.

Vocalist looked for a moment at walking away drummer in confusion, then returned to staring at the celling.

* * *

Midnight. Moonlight falling through the open window. Ruiza was laying on the bed. His eyes were closed, but he wasn't sleeping. He still heard his name being said by Asagi. Then he heard doors creek and then footsteps. They were different from those from yesterday. They were anxious. At some point footsteps stopped and Ruiza felt someone staring at him. He didn't open his eyes. Bed bent a little under someone's body, but Ruiza was pretending to be asleep. He didn't know why though. Maybe he was afraid it wasn't Asagi? It might have been someone else? Someone, he didn't care about as much? So he waited till supposed Asagi would get under his quilt, so he could be sure it's him and fall asleep. And finally get some rest because it was after midnight. And vocalist will wake up again not in his room, not knowing what he's doing there. But quilt stayed still next to Ruiza. But suddenly, that person's hand moved his hair from his face. That wasn't normal. Like that kiss on his lips. Ruiza opened his eye and embraced Asagi, giving back his kiss.

"You weren't sleeping." gasped Asagi, moving away from Ruiza, to breathe in some air.

"I couldn't sleep because of you, my Rose." explained Ruiza.

Asagi smiled and pulled his koi for a kiss. Sometimes dreams do come true.

Hide-zou entered Hiroki's room, where Tsunehito already was.

"Asagi went to Ruiza." he said.

"Oh no, I lost the bet." saddened Tsunehito.

"Remember, you're buying me a beer." reminded him Hiroki. "And next time you have to be more convincing."

"Ha ha. Very funny." Tsune poked his arm and all three laughted.

The end

Wednesday 5 May 2021

Different point of view

Band: Kagrra,, Alice Nine, Kra
Pairing:  Tora&Akiya, Isshi&Nao, Keiyu&Mai
Rating: 14+
Genre: romance
Warnings: -
Note: Different point of view from my other fanfics.



 "You're sitting and looking through the window. With you sad eyes. I wan't to come closer and hug you, but then you'll know how I feel about you. And it's impossible that you feel the same way about me. But i come closer. I don't hug you, only ask you if something happened. Like always you say that nothing. Why you're never telling me the truth? I would understand. I won't tell anyone your secrets, trust me. So why you're quiet again? Why do you ignore me? And why I get the feeling that you've fallen in love?”

* * *

 "And again. I pass you in the corridor, but you don't even notice me. Maybe... I don't know, I'm not sure. And I'm late again, because of looking at your silhouette dissapearing behind a door to yours studio. Rehearsall is finally over. We can go home. I exit last, because i thought about you nine times. Suddenly I feel obstacle on my road. It's you. You bumped into me? Great, I almost walked over you. I smile mildly, trying not to show how embarrased and at the same time happy I am about that. Yes, I touched your hand. Unforgettable feeling. And then I hear your quietly said words. I have to hide, yes I must hide. I enter the rehearsall room, completely empty by now. I haven't even turned on the light, so it's completely dark. My thoughts can't calm down. My breathing is fast and nervous. But I come to conclusion that I have to tell you that I heard what you said. Tommorow, day after tommorow, after fifteen year, when I'll finally find the guts to tell you.”

 * * *

 "You enter the room last. Weird. Usually you come right after me. Something's wrong. Your eyes seem different, you're not smiling. You wrote lyrics, hm... Could you explain me, why it's full of references from dance? Why? I know, I'm getting stupid. Okay, let's play that new song. Yes, let's play a few more, so maybe I'll stop looking at you and focus on playing... What's wrong?! What's going on with you?! Damn it, like always, you have to scare me. I lay you down on a coach and lean against the wall. Like usually, the rest of the band reacted just now... You woke up. Finally. And that idiot keeps on talking and talking. I have to drink some water. Oh, yes, I have to... What do I have to do?! He's crazy. Okay, whatever you guys want. I'll get you home, just DON'T TOUCH me. And I have to carry you up the stairs. You're so cute, when you're sleeping. And so innocent. How much would I give to see you sleeping next to me...”

The end