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Silence in the Darkness

Band: ViViD&Alice Nine Pairing: Shin&Shou Rating: 17+ Genre: comedy, romance Warnings: some erotic scenes Note: Shou has a nightmare...

Wednesday, 30 June 2021

Some day of some month

Band: Kra
Pairing: Keiyu&Mai
Rating: 15+
Genre: comedy, romance
Warnings: -
Note: Sometimes we are too much busy and we forget about a lot of things...



You.

"No, practice is at eight, not at ten. Why is it so hard to understand?"

Busy.

"Practice is at eight. I don't care you won't get enough sleep."

A little annoyed.

"So go to sleep at eight pm, not one am, man."

Or even very annoyed.

"Yes, we'll be there at twelve. No, we can't get there faster. This is really far, ma'am. You think we have F1 cars or something?"

But all of this...

"Ma'dam, I don't know why are we not there yet. Maybe because there's blizzard, it's freezing cold and our cars cannot start?"

...doesn't matter...

"Ma'ad, you're propably a blonde with American origin."

...when you're with me.

"I'm gonna go insane with them. Want some tea?"

Today, you should be smiling wide, while picking phones, but...

In the flat there was dead silence. It was interrupted by footsteps. Boards bended under Mai's body, who was standing in a doorway, looking at Keiyu surprised. Kousuke was laying on the couch with his eyes closed.

"Are you sleeping, Kou-chan?" asked Mai, approaching him.

"No." replied Keiyu, not opening his eyes. "Can you hear that silence?"

"Yes, I can." noded Mai.

"My cellphone's battery died." Keiyu smiled. "And I don't feel like charging it."

"But you should do it today." said Mai, looking at the calendar.

"I don't intend to." replied Keiyu, hugging a pillow. "I want to be left at peace."

"But do you remember what day is today?" asked Mai.

"I don't know. Sathurday?" replied Kousuke.

"More precisely?"

"Maybe February." said Keiyu. "Did I forget about something?"

"Which day?"

"I don't know, Maiccho. I have absolutely no idea."

"So open your black eyes."

"Why?"

'So I could explain to you what day we have."

"Alright." Keiyu sat up on the couch and opened his eyes.

"Happy birthday, Kou-chan." said Mai, giving Kousuke his birthday gift and a cream-colored rose.

"Thank you." Keiyu smiled. "Maiccho, buy me some memory pills. I might have serious problems if I forgot my own birthday."

"You're right, actually." Mai laughted. Keiyu looked at him.

"You were supposed to disagree..."

"I forgot." Mai shrugged. "Kou-chan, what happens on 14 April? I might have forgot."

"Mai!"

Moment later both of them laughted.

Yes. I'm the most important to you. It's all I need.

The end

Wednesday, 23 June 2021

Forbidden light, forbidden love

Band: Kagrra,
Pairing: Isshi&Nao
Rating: 15+
Genre: fantasy, AU, romance
Series: "Night's Children"
Warnings: supernatural existence
Note: Vampires, called Night's Children are normal in Mito. There are good and evil vampires. Good ones still have their conscience, while evil ones lost it. Vampire looses their conscience, when he kills an innocent man, who haven't murdered anyone.
Vampires see auras. Aura is a light surrounding human, conqueror or a vampire. Green is for conquerors, blue for vampires with conscience, red for vampires without it, white for good people and black for bad people.
There also conquerors, who fight with the plague of Night's Children. They kill only the evil vampires, who's footsteps they don't hear, as opposed to the good ones. They feel cold, when a vampire is approaching. This way they differentiate them from people.
Conquerors live in so called Shelter. Good vampires hang around in „Yoru” club. The more, the merries, right?



Prohibitions. Soon, world will rely solely on them. You cand do this or that or whatever else. You and I, living in this abnormal reality will soon break them all. One by one.

Again, I'm sitting in a window in a room that used to be ours. Now it's only yours. First she, then he. Two stupid unhumanly being, who took away my life and gave me a new one. If you could call that life. It's more of an eternal, futile and pointless existence lit up by moonlight and leading nowhere. Life was a thing that she took away from me. Something beautifull, you could cherish. And now? I'm sitting on a windowsill, looking at your sleeping face, because you've been sick lately. That climate and white fluff behind the window got you. Like always.

Your breath isn't calm, but at least you can perform that normal, but beatifull thing. I wonder, when someone will come here and check if you're alright, feel better or need something.

I touch your forehead. You're hot, like always, when you're sick. Without more thinking, I lay next to you. How tired you have to be if you're not reacting? You're a conqueror, just my presence here should cause you chills. That damned "cold" of mine, which you feel for whatever reason. Mine... It sounds so weird.

I like the ability to walk on walls only because I can get into your room like I did right now. Strenght is also usefull, because everyone knows, they can't ignore me. But why the speed, those auras surrounding humans and non-human beings, like stupid Night's Children? And all the other abilities I don't understand nor want. And those levels. Why do I have to take someone's life to save my own? I do it, because I'm to weak to go out into sunlight. And I don't want because of you. If I'd do that, I would never see you again.

Sometimes I wonder, why I understood that I love you, when I gave my life for you. Why couldn't I realise earlier, there's a reason, you're not leaving this room? You fell in love with me, and I didn't notice. Even when you layed your head on my chest and started listening to my heartbeat, I only thought, that you went crazy. What's weird, you also were sick that day.

Sound of heels draws me out from my thinking. Going out through the window I wonder if it's Hime or Chiyo. It's not important right now. Soon, sun will rise and I'll turn into ash if I won't hurry up.

They look at me and ask me, where I've been. Why they ask those questions? And Shitsune with a sad face, missing that traitor, who changed me. I realise, I start to miss him too.

A week passed. I'm sitting on a windowsill, starring at the moon. It's fullmoon. I don't even notice, when you open the window, and I fall into you room like in some stupid comedy, and look at you, embarrased.

"What are you doing here, Shinohara?" you ask calmly, helping me to get up.

I don't say anything. I only look at you. You sigh. I would like to do that too, but I can't.

You push me on the bed and lay next to me, holding delicate fabric, from which my coat is made. We lay like this for a moment, listening to the surrounding us silence.

"Where is everone?" I ask after a while.

"On missions. I lied to them that I'm still sick." you reply.

"Why?"

"Because I knew, you'll come." you explain. "Not hearing your hartbeat is weird."

"Naoki..."

"Don't call me Naoki." you say.

I start to think about good way to shorten your name.

"Can I call you Yamiyo?"- I ask.

You smile lightly.

"Shino, you can call me even Yami-chan. You can everything."

I wonder if that thing you just did isn't forbidden. But in those times, we are living... No, we are not living. In times in which you live and I exist, world relies on prohibitions. So our lips touching in a kiss aren't that bad. Then we broke that first ban. We mate our bodies meet under the white bedsheets.

Moon is shining behind the window. Snow starts to fal. Me and you exist in this abnormal reality. At least we are in it together.

The end

Wednesday, 16 June 2021

Devil and Angel - The mystery of white rose

Band: Kra with Kagrra, and Alice Nine in background
Pairing: Keiyu&Mai with Isshi&Nao and Tora&Akiya in background
Rating: 14+
Genre: angst, AU
Warnings: death, paranormal existence
Note: "You were disappearing. Like snow at the end of winter."



I thought you were only tired. With constant work. With daily life. With me. Yes, I know, that I'm not an angel. It's you, who is one. I'm a little devil, like aunt Fumiko used to call me. I called myself little? Something must be wrong with me.

I thought that your weariness will pass. But it was only getting worse. Then one day you suddenly fell to the floor. You fainted. Huh, almost like me, but I didn't need to be taken to hospital, right? So, you fainted. Then it got even worse. You stumbled, and felt dizzy. Finally I decided I should do something. I told you to leave the band. For your own good. So you could rest. Then you would come back and we would play again together. I thought everything's gonna be fine. I was wrong.

I thought it would get better. Finally, medication begun to work, you were feeling better. You smiled more often. But after some time you nedeed stronger and stronger medicine. Finally you took several in one day. Seeing as you disappear was terrifying. You were disappearing. Like snow at the end of winter.

That night you hugged me and asked what would I do, if you wouldn't wake up. I laughted. I don't know if it was because I thought it was stupid, or possible. I don't know. I told you only, you'll be fine, you'll recover and come back to fans. You smiled lightly and fell asleep.

That day I woke up earlier to buy something for breakfast. I was surprised seeing you, sitting on a couch and not looking that bad, when I went out of bathroom. You approached me, moved hair from my face and kissed me. You never kissed me like that before, you never did that out of the blue. That's when I understood how shy you are.

"You have to remember me like that, you understand?" you looked me in the eyes.

I smiled lightly.

"I will never forget you." I replied. "I'm going shopping. I'll be right back."

"Wait!" you called, when I was already going. "Say that you love me and use my name."

"But you don't like it." I was a little surprised.

"But I'm asking you." you said, leaning on a jamb.

"I love you, Masaru." I said calmly.

"I love you, Kousuke." you replied after a while and smiled.

I went out.

You were lying on the couch. It looked like you were sleeping. I didn't want to wake you up, but something seemed off. Calling you by your name, your overall behavior... Like you saw something coming. I approached you and put a hand on you arm. You never were a sound sleeper, so something like that should wake you up. But there was nothing that could wake you up. I never heard your voice again.

After twelve years I still wonder why it had to be you. I'm also not feeling well lately, doctors tell me to stay home, Shino is always complaining about how irresponsible of me is to go out and so on. Finally, he told me to move to his and Nao's place, because he has to watch over me all the time. And I don't care. I had to come here today. What could happen to me? In a few minutes I can't just...

"What's this?" I ask myself, fealing my chest getting heavier. "Masaru? Tell me, what's happening? Masaru..."

I fall to the ground. I don't have strenght to say anything to you. I only see smudged letters and numbers on your grave. After a while I feel your arms around me. I fall asleep.

~~change of point of view~~

I can't remember last time, we had so strong snowstorm. Maybe it was Mai's funeral. Approaching the door, I realised today is the anniversary! Shino will kill me if Keiyu's not home.

And he wasn't there. Stay calm, Yamada. Maybe you're like a cat and you have seven or nine lives. Crap, I can't remember how many they have. But for sure more than one.

Unfortunately, Shino right after I was done looking for Keiyu and realised he's not here. Shino looked at my terrified face, then calendar, then his eyes became bigger than moon.

"Anniversary!" he screamed. "Cementary, Yamiyo, now! What are you waiting for? Quick!"

I only noded in agreement. Never saw him run so fast.

I only just parked my car when Shino ran out from it. I thought he'll only get exhausted. I sighted and got out of the car. Then I heard a scream. Terrifying, sharp scream. I froze. I knew what it meant.

~~change of point of view~~

I put down boquet of white roses on a grave. "13th January, year 2012” and "13th January, year 2024”. Two dates written on a tombstone. Two dates marking death of two close people. So similar to eachother. That's so romantic. And sad. Very sad.

"Akiya?" Masashi's voice interrupted dead silence. "Are we going?"

"Yes." I replied.

We were close to the exit, when something made me turn around. I thought I saw Keiyu taking one rose from boquet and giving it to Mai. They both smiled, then dissapeared. I blinked. I looked at Masashi. I think he saw it too, be cause he made a contemplative face. We ran to the grave and stood in shock. Ribbon was untied and boquet was missing one rose.

~~The end~~

Wednesday, 9 June 2021

Bracelet

Band: ViViD
Pairing: Iv&Ko-ki
Rating: 14+
Genre: comedy, romance
Warnings: -
Note: Everyone has a thing that is precious for them. And Ivu has a bracelet with a photo of someone...



"Plop!” - small rock bounced on the water's surface then sank in it. "Plop!” - another one shared his fate. "Plop!” - next rock fell to the bottom. This one was big enough to make a big splash reaching Ivu's legs. Bassist looked at disturbed water's surface. It reminded him of his life - seemingly clear and shiny, but hiding a rock bottom.

"Ivu, you're thinking like Shin now." Iv laughted, when he realised, he's talking to himself.

Even though it was rather cold, and water was freezing, Ivu came here anyway. He was sitting on a slope so short, he reached water's surface with his toes. He liked coming here. He could reflect on his thoughts. Thoughts about certain drummer.

Drummer with cute sounding stage name Ko-ki, smiling behind his drumset and hitting drums with his green and blue drumsticks was something that was missing from his life. But he couldn't find courage to approach him, spark a conversation and take him somewhere quiet, so he could explain everything to him. The worst that could happen is only Ko-ki laughting at him... Only? Iv doubt, there was worse punishment for love. Being laughted at. That's the worst that could happen to him.

He threw another rock into the water. If he won't try talking to Ko-ki, he'll never know, if drummer understands him. And if he feels the same. But what if... What if Ko-ki is straight?

Another rock bounced on the water's surface. Sound of falling drops of water was muffled by the sound of footsteps. After a while bassist felt someone starring at him. And perfumes belonging to that starring person.

"Hi, Ivu." low voice could be heard. Iv turned around surprised. Ko-ki was standing in front of him, smiling lightly.

* * *

"Ko-ki?" asked Ivu, seing drummer. "What are you doing here?"

"Long story." said Ko-ki and sat next to him. "I've noticed, you're always wearing your bracelet with a locket. You take it off only at lives, photo sessions and other... stuff."

Ivu gripped his hand. He didn't have it! He wasn't wearing his bracelet! If it weren't Ko-ki, he would notice much later.

"You left it in a rehearsall room." continued Ko-ki. "I mean... Clasp fell off and it must have fallen from your wrist. Ryoga found it under his shoe."

"He stepped on it?" asked Iv.

"Yeah." Ko-ki made a sluggish face. "But my cousin is a jeweler, so he could fix it."

"Really?" asked Iv.

Ko-ki smiled lightly and took out bracelet from his pocket, then put it on Ivu's hand.

"But... When Ryoga stepped on it... You see..."

"What?" enquired Ivu.

"It opened, and I saw what's inside." said Ko-ki.

Ivu froze. He knew, what's inside that locket.

"So, Reno said, you come here, when you feel sad, so when I came to your house but did not get a hold of you, I came here." said Ko-ki. "To ask you one important question."

"What question?" Iv felt that Ko-ki started to shake, like he was afraid of saying what he wanted to.

"Why you carry picture of me in your locket?"- asked finally Ko-ki, looking Ivu straight in the eye.

"And how many lockets have to be stepped on by Ryoga for you, to finally notice, why?" asked Iv, smiling lightly.

Ko-ki looked at him, surprised. But he couldn't say anything, because Ivu grabbed and kissed him. At first Ko-ki lost his breath, but finally returned the kiss. After a while they moved away from each other.

"None." answered Ko-ki. "That one is enough."

Ivu smiled. Ko-ki smiled back then hugged Ivu.

The end

Wednesday, 2 June 2021

"You have to pay for your lie"

Band: Alice Nine&Kagrra,
Pairing: Tora&Akiya
Rating: 14+
Genre: comedy, romance
Warnings: some erotic scenes
Note: "You shouldn't lie only to get someone to sleep with you."



Through all that time Tora had his ankle sprained, Akiya acted normal. Too normal. At least according to Tora. Akiya always reacted right away, when he didn't like something. And he for sure didn't like the fact, that Amano lied to him. But now Akiya only sent him deadly gaze and it was all. Why he didn't yell at him? Why he didn't do anything else? Shou said that Tora is overreacting. But Shin after a while smiled a little mischeviously and didn't say anything. But that smile did not calm Tora down. Shin was Akiya's best friend and he knew him much longer than Amano, so Tora begun to wonder, what was going through his cute uke's head. But since Akiya didn't show intentions of hurting him at all, Tora finally calmed down.

As soon as doctor said that Amano can walk again, Nao organised the rehearsal. Tora had to go, no matter if he wanted to or not. Suddenly Nao got some important phonecall and announced that the rehearsal is over. But even Hiroto couldn't get out from him, who called, so Tora went home.

I hate lying, Masashi. Even my fans know about that. You have to pay for your lie, Tiger.

Tora entered the hall. Light turned on or rather Akiya did this. Tora blinked. In an armchair across him, sat Akiya, with undone shirt, barefoot and with a glass of red wine in his hand.

"Welcome, Masashi." he said calmly, emotionlesly, putting down glass at the table next to him.

He stod up and slowly approached Tora, gripping button of his shirt.

"I got a little worried over the fact, that you lied to me." he said, undoing his button.

"You could call Shou." another button

"Nao." third button.

Hiroto, eventualy Saga." next button.

"And not wake me up in the middle of the night and lie, Tiger." he said, undoing his last button.

"But..."

"But what?" interrupted him Akiya, leading him to their bedroom.

"Maybe we got together because of your white lie, but you shouldn't lie only to get someone to sleep with you." he said, taking down Tora's shirt.

Amano just now started to wonder, why he suddenly became so submissive. What was in this calm and emotionless Akiya's voice that made Tora to stop thinking about what is he doing?

Akiya took of his shirt seductively, then pushed Tora on the bed.

"But what are you..." Tora couldn't finnish, because Akiya pushed him on his back, gripping his belt.

"And don't even think about being seme tonight, sweetheart." he said firmly, smiling seductively.

"But Aki..." begun Tora, but Akiya put a finger on his lips.

"Quiet, my Tiger..."

* * *

"Murai, why did you actually plan this rehearsal?" asked Hiroto.

"Akiya asked me." replied Nao.

"Why?" asked Hiroto.

"You know what, Hiroto? I don't think I want to know..."

The end