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Silence in the Darkness

Band: ViViD&Alice Nine Pairing: Shin&Shou Rating: 17+ Genre: comedy, romance Warnings: some erotic scenes Note: Shou has a nightmare...

Wednesday, 30 March 2022

Few rules to remember

Band: Kagrra,, 168 -one sixty eight-
Pairing: Isshi&Nao
Rating: 16+
Genre: comedy, romance
Series: "Life with a Ghost"
Warnings: violence, paranormal existence
Note: Aoi should listen to ghosts~



Rule 1. Never hit on Nao.

"Nao-chan!" Aoi jumped into confused Nao's arms, when he crossed the doorway to the studio. "I didn't have inspiration yesterday, but I thought about you and I felt inspired, you know?"

"That's nice..." Nao smiled in an... apologetic way?

Aoi jumped to his piece, leaving the bassist slightly abashed.

Rule 2. Never ever hit on Nao.

"Nao-chan, let's go out somewhere after recording this single." proposed Aoi, bending over Nao's arm.

"Yeah, we can go." replied Nao, smiling lightly.

Rule 3. Are you even reading those rules, Aoi?

"Nao-chan, have you noticed how beautiful is the sky tonight?" asked Aoi, when they went outside. - Stars are reflecting in your eyes and making them look like they're glowing with happiness.

"I prefer starless nights." said Nao, playing with his fingers.

"Why?" asked Aoi.

"Because you can imagine stars on the sky and imagination gives us unlimited possibilities." explained Nao, smiling ligtly.

"That makes sense." said Aoi. "Beautifully said, Nao-chan."

"Those are not mine words." denied Nao. "Someone else told me this. Before he started to call me "Yamiyo"."

Rule 4. Get the idea, Aoi.

Next day Nao was tuning his bass, when he felt Aoi's breath on his neck.

"How many people told you, you have beautiful hands?" asked Aoi, grabbing Nao's hands.

"No one told me that and that's why I think you ran out of ideas for pick-up lines." said Nao, facing Aoi.

"Why do you think so?" Asked Aoi, puting his hand on Nao's cheek.

"Aoi, stop." said Nao, gritting his teeth.

Rule 5. If Nao stopped calling you "Ao-chan", please, for the love of gods piss of off him.

"But why, Nao-chan?" asked Aoi, bending over Nao, almost making their lips touch. "You need to get out of this."

"I'd need two hundred years for that." said Nao, trying to move away from him.

Aoi's and Nao's lips touched for few seconds, because...

Rule 6. AOI, YAMIYO IS MINE!

Aoi felt grabbed from behind, like someone forcibly pulled him away from Nao. Confused he looked around, but did not see anyone. Then he felt someone's fingers griping his shirt. Then he saw furious Isshi in front of him.

"If you touch Yamiyo one more time, I promise you I'll visit you at night and make you your own end of the world." he said, holding Aoi against a wall. "Understood?"

"Yes." terrified Aoi fell on the floor, when Isshi let him go.

Nao was standing next to him and smiling, while covering his mouth, like Shin does.

Rule 7. Love is forever, Aoi.

"You didn't have to react so aggresively." said Nao, sitting on the bed.

"At least he'll remember to not hit on you and put himself in the risk of experiencing something paranormal." said Isshi, caressing Nao's cheek.

"I have my guardian angel, who'll protect me from guys hitting on me." Nao smiled, getting closer to Isshi. "Kiss me, Shino."

"Do you think it's a good idea?" asked Isshi, looking at Nao with confusion. "I'm a ghost, Yamiyo."

"But I still love you." said Nao.

THE END

Wednesday, 23 March 2022

„How to piss off Kyo?” A Guide by Daisuke Andou

Band: Dir en grey
Pairing: Die&Toshiya, Kyo&Shinya
Rating: 16+
Genre: comedy
Warnings: -
Note: Kyo hates being called cute or by his real name. And Die knows it.



Die leaned on his guitar and looked at Kyo, who for few days now acted like pleasant and nice Tooru, which is a side of vocalist unknown to his fans. He had enough of it.

"Hey, Kyo!" he called, when Kyo once again complimented sprout salad by "his beatiful Shinya, who he loves so much".

"Yes?" Kyo looked away from Shinya.

"Anata wa kawaii desu, Tooru-chan." said Die in a sweet voice.

"Let's pay respects to our dear friend, Andou Daisuke." said Shinya, knowing what'll happen next.

"ANDOU!"

Toshiya packed his bass, knowing that Kyo came back and his koi will be out of comission, when he'll finally come off the wall that vocalist will smear him into.

Kaoru only hit his face with his palm and cursed, then said:

"Who am I working with?"

Leader got up from his chair and approached the door.

"But Kyo, we need that guitarist." he said, seeing how Kyo grips Die's hair, then he left.

THE END

Wednesday, 16 March 2022

Sometimes the wait is worth it

Band: ViViD&Anli Pollicino
Pairing: Shin&Shindy
Rating: 16+
Genre: comedy, romance
Warnings: -
Note: Shindy is sick, Shin take cares of him. What will happen next?



"Let's just be friends, okay?" Mitsuru looked at Shin.

The vocalist noded. All of it was just an infatuation.

"Are you mad?" Mitsuru asked, trying to get Shin's attention.

"No." Shin shook his head. "The fact that we don't love each other anymore doesn't mean we have to start a meaningless war."

"So I can visit for a coffee?" Mitsuru gave out a short laught.

Shin only smiled.

"You'll be my friend forever, Mitsu." said Shin, messing with his ex's hair.

Shin woke up early in the morning. He felt cold. Mitsuru went away to his hometown and looked for some stable job, not having anything to do with being in a band. This time it happened for real and Takeru won't be able to find him anymore.

It feels weird to end an relationship after half a year. You get used to the other person in your house, outside, in your car, in your life. Then everything disappears and the flame of love is gone and the only thing you can offer is your friendship.

Shin put on his jacket and left the house. The practice can't happen without him and Reno will kill him.

"Shin-chan, you should find someone new." said Ko-ki, poking his friend with his finger. "You're so lost in your thoughts you seem to have already someone new on your mind."

"How is Mitsuru doing?" asked Ivu, digging through stuff in his bag.

"He went away." replied Shin. "I'm fed up with the fact that we parted one year ago, but you still look after me. I'm not a teenager."

"It was a year already?" wondered Reno, tuning his guitar. "A year without anyone. How did you do that, Shin? You didn't even meet any girls?"

"I've met one. She lasted one week." said Shin.

"I'm telling you. He's in love and that's why he acts this way. Who thinks the same?" asked Ko-ki, lifting his arm.

"Leave him alone, Ko-ki." said Ryoga. "If he fell in love, he would told us already."

But Shin, even though the drummer was right, didn't say a thing. This time he knew the person he fell in love with, but they weren't from his band or even his label.

* * *

"What are you doing in my dream, Shin?"

"The same thing as always. I''m just being here."

"Very smart explanation."

"You made it up yourself. I'm just in your imagination."

"Akihide? If it's just a dream, can you kiss me?"

"You're older, yet you're such a cute uke."

The following day Shin was coming back home from the band practice, when he met with something which could be called a human insensitivity.

If someone's siting on the grass, covering their face with their hands and looks like they're about to faint, you need to approach them and help. Not pass and pretend you didn't see them. Especially since Shin thought that person looks familiar.

"Everything's fine?" asked Shin, squatting in front of person completely ignored by the people passing by.

"I think I'm hallucinating." said the person surprised, uncovering their face and looking at Shin with watery eyes.

"Hi, Shindy." said Shin calmly, smiling. "I'll ask again. Everything's fine?"

"Am I imagining things or you're real?" asked Shindy.

"You're sitting on the grass because something had happened to you or is it your hobby?"

"I feel dizzy." said Shindy, closing his eyes.

"Maybe I'll call an ambulance?" asked Shin, putting his hand on Shindy's forehead. "No wonder something happened to you. You have a high fever."

"Don't call the doctor or Takuma will kill me." pleaded Shindy. "He hates to cancel the band practice."

"Almost like Reno." Shin smiled lightly, while helping Shindy to stand up. "Anyway, I'm not letting you sit there untill the evening and get even more sick."

"Do you know where I live?" Shindy asked.

"Kinda." said Shin. "But if you could explain it to me, that'd be easier."

Fifteen minutes later they were under the building. Shindy took out his keys from his jacket's pocket and gave it to Shin.

"I can hardly see right now." he explained, then he heard the lock open, then felt his feet not touching the ground.

"Don't get angry, but I don't think you can walk up the stairs like that." explained Shin hugging Shindy.

"Why are you doing this, Shin?" Shindy asked in a weak voice, when Shin opened the door to his flat and threw off his sneakers.

"Because I want to take care of you." Shin explained.

"Why?" wondered Shindy, when younger vocalist put him down on a couch.

"Where do you keep your thermometer?" asked Shin, awoiding the question.

"In a drawer above the sink in a red basket." explained Shindy, puting his hand over his eyes.

"Here you go." Shin gave him the thermometer and put a glass of water and some pills on the table.

The thermometer beeped after about a minute. Shin took it out of Shindy's mouth and looked at the screen.

"Kami-sama." he whispered, feeling the cold sweat. "How on earth you're still alive, Shindy?"

"I think I'm gonna faint..." whispered Shindy, looking at the ceeling with a blank stare. "Shin look, it's snowing."

"Now you're hallucinating." said Shin, giving shindy a pill. "Take it. The snow will disappear. Can you hear me?"

"Snow." Shindy smiled, closing his eyes.

"Don't faint." Shin lifted him, then ran to the bathroom, opening the door with his elbow.

He got into the bathtub with Shindy, put him on his lap and turned on the cold water.

"Why am I wet?" asked Shindy after a while. "Why are you sitting there?"

"I'm trying to beat your fever." said Shin. "I felt sick myself when I saw that 41.9 degrees."

"Why didn't you just give me a pill?" wondered Shindy.

"Because you stopped responding." explained Shin. "Shindy, I think you need to go to the hospital. Don't think about Takuma. I can't let you die because of him."

"But why?" asked Shindy.

"Maybe if you weren't so feverish, you'd figure it out yourself." said Shin, getting out of the bathtub.

He helped Shindy do the same and went with him to his room.

When Shindy was in his bed, wearing dry and warm pyjamas, filled with medicine and covered in bedheets from head to toe, Shin realized he should go home already. He borrowed clean clothes from Shindy then brought him gass of water.

"I think I should go." said Shin.

Shindy only looked at him. Shin sighed and turned around. Then something he didn't see through had happened.

Shindy's fingers had closed tightly on Shin's hand. ViViD's vocalist lost his balance, when Shindy pulled him, forcing him to sit on the bed.

"Stay." whispered Shindy, looking into Shin's eyes.

Shin blinked. Was it all really happening?

* * *

Yo-ichi stretched and looked around the practice room. Shindy wasn't coming to the practice for a week now, because he got sick again. Takuma wasn't happy about this, but Kiyozumi knew how to calm him down, when the guitarist got angry. Though his way of calming Takuma down could really be called that? Yo-ichi wasn't so sure about it. Anyway Takuma wouldn't cancel the practice, so they had to come here whenever they liked that or not.

Yo-ichi wondered about one thing relating to Shindy's sickness – why he didn't ask for help this time? Sick Anli Pollicino's vocalist couldn't really do anything by himself and definitely refused to go to the hospital, even though sometimes it was a matter of life and death.

"Hi." Shindy showed up, looking around the room. "Where's Takuma and Kiyozumi?"

"They're late." said Masatoshi, turning a page in the newspaper. "They came here, but then went to buy water and forgot to come back."

"What's up?" asked Yo-ichi smiling. "How's health?"

"Much better." said Shindy, laying on a couch. "Someone took good care over me."

"But none of us looked after you, because you said you'll be fine by yourself..." Yo-ichi frowned.

"How did I look like the last time I came to the band practice?" asked Shindy.

"Like a death on vacations." said Masatoshi, closing the newspaper. "I don't think Takuma and Kiyozumi are coming back."

"When I was going home from the practice, I felt bad and sat on the grass to wait it out. And guess who found me." said Shindy.

"No." Yo-ichi shook his head. "Don't tell me you've met..."

"Yes, Shin found me." Shindy laughted.

"Really? THAT SHIN?!" Yo-ichi leaned on Shindy's lap and looked him straight in the eyes. "That Shin you wrote "Taste me" and "Game of love" for? That Shin you had a crush on when ViViD didn't even exist yet? That Shin, who appeared in your dreams? That Shin, who made you hate Mitsuru? Really?! That one?!"

"Yes." agreed Shindy.

"No way!" Masatoshi got up from the chair. "And what happened next?"

"He turned out to be caring and compassionate." said Shindy.

Then the door opened and Takuma entered the room.

"Shindy!" Takuma embraced him. "I'm so happy to see you!"

"Anyone knows what's his deal?" asked Shindy.

"His hormones are acting up." explained Kiyozumi. "Like a pregnant woman's hormones."

"He met Shin." Yo-ichi pointed his finger to Shindy. "That Shin."

"WHAT?!" Takuma jumped away from Shindy and Kiyozumi blinked quickly.

"Really?" he asked. "Tell me you've talked with him or I'm going to kill him."

"Let's say that not officially." said Shiny.

"How about unofficially?" Yo-ichi looked at him with curiosity.

"I'm not sure yet." explained Shindy.

Shin came back home and threw his jacket off his shoulders. He felt someone's presence.

"Thanks for the keys, Akihide." said Shindy, leaning on a wall. "Ima please, please taste me."

Shin gave out a short laugh, pulling him in for a kiss.

"If you want to know, you're as sweet as chocolate with strawberry filling, Shinya." said Shin, moving a strand of hair off Shindy's face, then he lifted him up. "But let's see if that's really true."

Shindy laughted, closing the bedroom's door. Sometimes the wait is worth it.

The End

Wednesday, 9 March 2022

Zutto

Band: Kagrra,
Pairing: Isshi&Nao
Rating: 16+
Genre: angst
Series: "Life with a Ghost"
Warnings: death, paranormal existence
Note: They will always be together.



True love starts with a flower in a vase and ends with a candle in the window. There are no more flowers then, besides the ones, who rest on a loved one's grave.

Nao put flowers on a Isshi's grave and looked at neighboring one, with a name he knew.

"Yamiyo, why are we actually doing this?" asked Isshi, laying bouqet of flowers on the grave that interested Nao.

"I don't know." Nao shrugged. "But at least I didn't do suicide like certain someone."

Yamada looked at someone dressed in all black, standing near.

"Shino, I see the light." Nao pointed in some direction.

"That's ours light." Isshi smiled lightly. "Take my hand, Yamiyo."

"Together?"

"Always."

Isshi and Nao grabbed their hands and went in a direction of a light only they were able to see, then they vanished.

The end

Wednesday, 2 March 2022

In a blink of an eye

Band: Kagrra,, Alice Nine, Kra
Pairing: Isshi&Nao, mentioned Tora&Akiya, Izumi&Shi
Rating: 16+
Genre: angst, romance
Seria: "Life with a Ghost"
Warnings: alcohol, death, paranormal existence
Note: "Isshi's life passed in a a blink of an eye, even though Nao thought he'll live forever."



When Isshi met Nao, he realized that Naoki Yamada is the weirdest, craziest and clumsiest person he met in his life. He also thought that he won't met anyone as optimistic as him ever again.

Then he met Keiyu. People say to don't judge the book by the cover. That was the perfect description of Keiyu. Even though he way weirder and crazier than Nao, he was a realist. If one person was sure they'd win the lottery and the other one was sure they won't, he would say they both waste their time on wondering, because no one will earn anything.

Nao was a no match for Keiyu in one thing. Keiyu was so perverted it was hard for another person like that. He was even worse than Akiya, who Isshi found in a broom closet with Shin, where they both fallen asleep covered only by the plaid shirt of the taller guitarist.

One beautiful morning, when the birds were singing, the sun was shining and the butterflies flied around, Isshi woke up with Keiyu's legs around his waist. He thought to himself that he's never going to let the younger vocalist stay the night ever again. Especially since he was horribly hungover and didn't remember a thing, while Keiyu remembered everything in detail and felt fine.

At some point Isshi noticed that Nao is acting even stranger than normally. He got caught up in his thoughts so far the only way to get his attention was to snap fingers in front of his eyes, which sometimes caused the bassist to flinch.

Isshi started to wonder why was this happening. Especially since Nao's behavior has gotten worse. The bassist was getting more and more broody while at the same time trying to spend more time with Isshi.

It was a beautifull, colorfull Spring and Isshi had some weird thoughts coming to his head. He wasn't annoyed anymore by Nao, who followed him like a shadow and he started to enjoy the daily coffee made by the bassist. In generall he noticed him more than usuall. It was weird for him, because he got a feeling he discovered something that was there all along, yet he couldn't find it.

The breakthrough moment was the kiss. Completely unexpected, because Isshi wouldn't have thought that Akiya would kiss him. He was shocked for the first few minutes because of two reasons. First one being the thing that just happened and the second one being his thoughts after the incident.

"Why Nao wasn't the one who kissed me, instead of Akiya?"

Isshi had to ask himself an important question. Does he love Nao? Didn't Keiyu notice the way he stares at Nao? Keiyu didn't believe in love, yet he noticed there's something going on. When Shou heard that, which probably seemed obvious to him, he laughted and told him to do something about it. He also was positive about the outcome of things.

It took Isshi four months to think about pros and cons and he decided that there were more pros. So when he had an opportunity, even though he imagined it looking different, he got the courage to tell Nao his feelings and kissed the confused bassist.

No one was surprised that Isshi and Nao got together. Only Tora, who thought he's 100% straight was surprised about it. So surprised that he came to a conclusion that he himself doesn't love any woman at the moment...

For a year Isshi's and Nao's relationship consisted of cute names, bed and fights. Very intense fights which all the Isshi's pets, other Kagrra, members and the rest of PSC, especially Shou and Keiyu had enough of.

But all it took to change everything was one evening. Illusion in which Isshi drowned made him realise that Nao is more important to him than the whole world.

At first everyone felt relief. Later they felt nauseated since Isshi was still mean, but Nao became an apple of his eye. He did whatever Nao asked for. If Nao wished for a star from the sky, Isshi would probably grab him one. Nao was tied to Isshi by an invisible thread, no one could cut off.

March 25th 2010 was the worst day in Isshi's life.

"You're dying, Mr. Hitoshi."

Isshi wasn't afraid of death. He was scared of parting ways with Nao. That terrified him more than his death.

Isshi tried to tell Nao, but he gave up for one simple reason. Nao didn't take good news about dying people. This usually had few stages:

1) Phase of crying - usually took two days, sometimes a little more, depending on the feelings Nao had towards that person.

2) Phase of panicking - Nao cried after a mere mention of the dead person or any thing that reminded him of them. This lasted for about a week.

3) Phase of questioning - Nao walked around the house, practice room, studio and so on repeating one question "Why does it always have to be me?".

4) Phase of promises - this one was the worst for Isshi, after he learned he'll die, because Nao would always come to him and ask:

"You won't die, right?"

Before Isshi learned about his illness he'd smile and promise he'll live for at least fifty years. After knowing the horrible truth he just noded his head and hugged Nao, trying not to cry. Then he wrote the "Shiroi Uso" lyrics and no one know from where he got that idea.

Isshi's life passed in a a blink of an eye, even though Nao thought he'll live forever.

"Shino? Shino, say something to me, please. Shino..."

"Nao, that's enough, come with me."

At first Shin and Izumi were the ones who took care over devastated Nao, even though they also suffered. Even Shin couldn't believe what happened.

"Shino will come back, right, Hashidani?"

"Nao, dead don't come back."

"So I'll go to him. He'll be happy."

"I'd doubt it."

"Why?"

"Haven't he told you to not do something stupid?"

"Oh, right. It doesn't change the fact, that I wan't to die, though..."

After Shin and Izumi, Tora and Akiya were the one who looked after Nao, which wasn't a good idea. Nao's mental condition had bad influence on Akiya's mood, who still remembered the cold skin under his fingers.

"Kill me, Akiya."

"What?"

"Kill me. I wanna go to Shino. I want to see him. Now!"

"Nao, wait, no!"

Luckily Tora was fast enough to catch Nao, before he reached the balcony door. Nao wrote the lyrics to "wanna see u" after this and Tora composed the music.

For everyone who saw Isshi's spirit, his words became the truth. Death was just the begining of the eternity. Or at least the continuation of it. Eternity begun, when Izumi introduced Nao to Isshi.

The end