Road to nowhere

Band: Kagrra,

Pairing: Isshi&Nao

Rating: 16+

Genre: angst

Warnings: death

Note: This is the road to nowhere.

I'm running.

Small rocks painfully hurt my bare feet.

I'm running.

Water running down on my arms from my still wet hair.

I'm running.

Tears gathering in my eyes. I feel like they'll flow down on my cheeks.

I'm running.

I see my home, our home.

I'm running.

Where are the keys? Where are they?

Here.

I open the doors.

I call you out.

Silence answers me.

Letters.

From Akiya.

From you.

Our picture.

I hear my own scream from afar.

I fall on the floor.

Time stops.

"Yamada!"

Shin grabs me by the arms and shakes me lightly.

"Yamada, look at me!"

It's Izumi's voice, I think.

I don't know.

This reallity is getting more distant from me.

I loose conciousness.

~~The end~~

Raspberry

Band: Kagrra,&168 -one sixty eight-

Pairing: Akiya&Aoi

Rating: 16+

Genre: comedy, romance

Series: "Vanilla&Raspberry"

Warnings: some erotic scenes

Note: "I blinked, then looked around. This certainly wasn't my room, my house or even my bed and I was naked and had a hangover the size of Tokyo. I moaned, realizing that someone is hugging me."

It felt so weird, when he grabbed me by the hand and took me to his room.

"What’s your name?" I asked, when he put me down on his bed and sat on my lap, then started unbuttoning my shirt.

"Too much alcohol." he said, getting rid of the first layer of my clothes.

I put my hand in his hair. I have no idea what was it about him, that made me lose my mind. I pulled him closer for a kiss and wanted to stay like that. Alcohol buzzed in my head, when I put my hands under his shirt, when they moved all over his body. Sometimes I thought I've slept with more people than a certain person I know. But at that moment, while being dazed by the raspberry flavor of his lips, I didn't think about that and I couldn't even care.

* * *

I blinked, then looked around. This certainly wasn't my room, my house or even my bed and I was naked and had a hangover the size of Tokyo.

"Again?" I moaned, realizing that someone is hugging me.

"Quiet." he murmured, tightening his grip on my arm.

I blinked again. A festival. Party after the live, hotel, raspberry lips. Okay, I remember everything. Even that I was on top.

"Do you, by chance, use raspberry lip gloss?" I asked, waiting for his reaction.

He didn't do anything for the first few seconds. Then a small wrinkle appeared on his forehead. He opened his eys wide and jumped away from me so suddenly he fell out of the bed. Wait, I've seen that before. Oh, right. I was in that kind of situation once, only that time I was the one falling out of the bed.

"WHAT ARE YOU..." he tried to yell at me, but he grimaced like a poor, small uke, who just felt the pain in lower part of his body. "Akiya, I'll kill you."

"Oh, I'm so scared!" I laughed. "You were the one bringing me here. Don't you remember?"

"What are you..." his eyes became as big as Shou's or Tsunehito's.

He just remembered.

"Now I know how Nao did feel." I started laughting again. "And you said I was the one who drank too much."

"You didn't remember my name!" he yelled, holding his head.

"Your hangover seems to be bigger than mine." I smiled. I got up and bent over him. "And I wanted you to know, that in the end I remembered your name, Shinobu."

"Don't call me that!" he shook his head, instantly regretting that.

I got dressed while he didn't even get up from the floor. He had the face of regret.

"What happened, young guy?" I asked, kneeling beside him and covering him with a blanket. "Huh?"

"I'm older than you." he said clearly offended. "I was born in April and you in August. How on earth someone younger took my virginity?!"

He said the last few words through his teeth, with a face of a child, who didn't like it's new toy. I burst out with laugher, lying on the floor.

"What are you laughing at?" he asked, smiling slightly.

"You're cute." I said, wiping up tears of laughter.

"I'm not cute!" he yelled, getting up and wrapping up himself in a blanket.

"Absolutely not. Especially when you're so adorable, when you get angry." I smiled and got up, then approached the door. "Will you get mad at me now?"

"I can be mad only at myself." he sighed. "And my parents for not creating me later."

"I could call you Ao-chan." I said.

Then I got hit with a pillow.

* * *

There were three empty wine glassed on the table. The rest of the guests were in other rooms. Kouki tried to keep everything under his control, but it didn't quite work.

"So you claim you have slept with Aoi." Nao leaned on my arm. "Which one?"

"Both of them." I replied, laughing.

"No." Nao shook his head. "Akiya, please say that again after my next two glasses then maybe I'll believe you."

"After your next two glasses you'll be laying under the table." I said.

"Maybe." sighed Nao, looking at the ceiling. "Were you at least on top?"

"It depends about which Aoi we're talking about." I took a sip of wine from my glass.

"The one from Gazette wouldn't agree to bottom." Nao laughted like a girl. "But I'd doubt if Ao-chan could let someone younger than him be on top."

"So stop doubting" I smiled lightly.

Nao was so shocked that he started talking about purple cats He already dank one and a half glass of wine and after finishing another one he fell asleep on my lap.

"Nao fell asleep?" Masashi sat next to me and put his arm around me.

"Yes." I replied, smiling at the sight of Aoi, who just kissed Ryohei.

I wonder if his lips still taste like raspberries after all those years.

The end

One day out of life

Band: 168 -one sixty eight-&Migimimi sleep tight, Kagrra, in the background

Pairing: Aoi&Ryohei, mentioned Isshi&Nao

Rating: 16+

Genre: soft angst with happy ending

Series: "Life with a Ghost"

Warnings: paranormal existence, melancholy of main character

Note: Aoi is in love with Nao, but then he realizes that it's probably not true.

I wake up. Being woken up by your voice makes me happy*. So I go to make myself a breakfast, coffee, then I sit in my armchair. I turn on the music quietly, so I won't wake up my roommate. He wakes up at the same hour no matter if it's his work day or not. That's why sometimes he wakes me up, which is a little annoying.

I put on my vest, then shoes, then I poke my roommate's arm.

"Wake up." I say, which makes him jump up in fear.

I took my revenge. I can leave.

Entering the studio, I say "hi" to everyone and I look for you. You're sitting there and looking into the abyss. I know wery well what are you looking at. You can't see him now, but you know he's there. Maybe he told you, or maybe you figured that out. Anyway, "nothing" is more fascinating for you than me.

I sit next to you and we talk. I like talking with you. I feel like in some idyllic land full of flower I'm not allergic to.

"Are you listening to me?" you ask.

Ah, right. I forgot to mention I often trail off during our talks.

I pull out my hand, wanting to touch you. Caress your cheek, play with your hair, put a finger on your lip or once again, that one last time, kiss your lips.

I feel like I'm Werter** and you are my Lotta. I'm almost touching you, but then I remember there's also Albert**. I take away my hand and I get up hastily.

"Let's start working." I say with a fake smile.

While we say "goodbye" to eachother I get the feeling you're sad. Or maybe it's that stupid hope in my heart.

I leave the studio quickly. I'm looking for my car at the parking... Yes, I forgot, where I parked. I have holes in my memory because of you. Looking for the car, I feel someone's hand on my arm.

"Stop." says Albert, smiling lightly. "Don't be unhappy, because Yamiyo is worried."

"So let me..." I begin, but Albert disappears.

I go back home. I throw myself on the bed wanting to cry, then I hear my roommate's voice.

"Yes, he doesn't notice that. Yes, he have fallen in love with Nao. And I have to cheer him up. Maybe I could if it wasn't Aoi's fifth crush this year. And it's only July!"

I realize, he's not aware that I came back home.

"What can I do about it? I won't..." my roommate gets quiet for a moment. "I won't tell him that I still love him and I didn't have any financial problems and I want it all to... Come back. But he wants Nao. Earlier it was Teruki, our neighbour, and even earlier..."

"Ryohei?" I stand in his room's doorway and look at him confused. "What are you talking about?"

"Crap." Ryohei's cellphone fall out of his hand and breaks when it hits the floor. "Aoi, listen, I know that..."

Maybe it was an impulse or maybe my love for you was only an illusion, which hid my true feelings.

Actually Ryohei's lips are sweeter than yours and you maybe never were my Lotta in the first place, Yamada.

The end

*Aoi had set the that part of "wanna see u", where Nao sings as his alarm sound.

**Werter, Albert and Lotta are characters of a story called "The Sorrows Of Young Werter", Werter falls in love with Lotta, who's engaged to Albert. Because he can't be with the one he loves, Werter writes depressive letters to his friend Wilhelm, then he commits suicide.

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Band: Kagrra,, Alice Nine, Kra, Gazette, SuG, Screw and Miyavi

Pairing: Isshi&Nao, Tora&Akiya, Saga&Shou, Nao&Hiroto, Izumi&Shin, Keiyu&Mai, Aoi&Kai, Ruki&Uruha

Rating: 16+

Genre: comedy

Warnings: -

Note: Japanese + camera = memory card full.

3rd January 2009

PSC's tenth anniversary. Akiya was taking the pictures of everyone and everything. He took a picture of Miyavi, who was running from one person to another and telling them some bad joke about unicorns, Alice Nine's Nao, who tried to catch Hiroto, who took away his drumsticks, Shou drinking his soy milk and staring at Saga, who tried to prove everyone how sexy he is, Tora, who put his hands behind his head and leaned on a wall, Mai trying to explain something to Keiyu, who only noded his head, Yasuno fixing his hair all the time, Yuhra discussing something with Reita, Ruki and Uruha hiding around the corner, Aoi staring at Kai, Mitsuru asking Izumi and Shin about his band whereabouts, while they were hiding under the stairs and laughting at him, Screw trying to explain why that unicorn joke is not funny and finally he stood in the doors of Kagrra,'s changing room.

Nao was sitting on the chair, trying to organize his hair. The stylist left him half an hour ago, but one streak of hair refused to stay in its place.

"Leave it be, Yamada." said Isshi, putting his hands on his arms. "It's only hair."

"But it's annoying." said Nao, crossing his arms on his chest. "Your hair goes in all directions and you're not bothered by it."

"I forgot how feminine you are." sighed Isshi.

Nao looked at him, slightly offended.

"How?"

"Yamada, you're like a typical wife: you're worried about your look, your clothes and the amount of money in your wallet." said Isshi, laughing.

"You're gonna get it." said Nao, being offended even more.

"And you're acting like my mom before she gets her period." Isshi smiled. "Yamada?"

"Hm?" Nao looked at Isshi, tilting his head backwards.

"Do you know that usually the wife loves her husband?" asked Isshi.

Nao smiled.

Akiya took the picture of them. They haven't noticed a thing.

Isshi leaned to kiss Nao.

Akiya took the second picture. This time they noticed. Akiya waved them and ran away.

"Kazuhiro, give me that camera!" Isshi dashed after him. "Give me back that photo! This is a violation of my privacy!"

"You won't catch up with me!" said Akiya, laughing, then he bumped into confused Shou.

"Akiya, what are you doing?" he asked, looking at the camera.

Isshi got between Nao and Hiroto then looked at Akiya.

"Give... me... the... camera." he said angrily. "Now."

"How about the magic word?" chuckled Akiya.

"Give."

"Not that one."

"I said, give it back!" Isshi wanted to run after Akiya, but Shou stopped him.

"Isshi, what got into you?" laughted Shou.

"He took a picture of me." explained Isshi. "Of us. Violating our privacy."

"So?" Shou laughted again. "Leave him alone. What could be on that picture?"

"Me and Yamada kissing." answered Isshi.

Shou froze.

"I have a plan." he said. "Tora!"

"Yes?" Tora turned around in the middle of his talk with Mitsuru.

"If you take away Akiya's camera from him, I'll persuade Sakamoto into giving you those 500 yen back." said Shou.

"Okay" Tora smiled and went to do a quest.

"You know what, Shou?" Isshi looked at Tora going away. "He won't take that camera away from him."

"Why?"

"Because Tora is henpecked." explained Isshi.

"So you also noticed?"

"I notice a lot of things." replied Isshi.

"Look, Tora is coming back." noticed Shou.

"Isshi, those pictures are beautiful." said Tora, handing him the camera. "You can delete them if you want, but I wouldn't do that."

Isshi gently took the camera, thinking how Tora was able to get it from Akiya.

"What did you do, Tiger, to get it?" asked Isshi.

"I said please." said Tora, covering his mouth with his hand, so he wouldn't burst out with laughter.

Isshi didn't delete the pictures. Few months later, he developed the pictures, and put one of them on the cupboard.

"What do you think, Yamiyo? Will Akiya forgive me how I treated him back then?" asked Isshi, looking at the picture.

"I also got angry back then." Nao looked at the dust cloth he was holding, then he gave it to Isshi. "From now one, you're cleaning the dust. We're sharing our responsibilities."

"I can clean the dust if you want me to." Isshi lifted the picture and wiped the shelf with the cloth. "What are you ging to do from now on? Yamiyo?"

Nao was sitting on the bed and looking at his PSP.

"I'll be playing a game. You clean. You'll see how it feels." Nao smiled, then turned on the game.

"Right, I deserve it." murmured Isshi, continuing the cleaning.

Mentioned picture is on the cupboard to the shelf to this day and probably no one will ever take it down.

THE END