Fear

Story

Rating: 9+

Genre: metaphore

Warnings: -

Note: It's a metaphor. Enjoy?

Once, there was a little girl named Chou.

One april afternoon, Chou was coming home from school, when she saw a cat behind small house's fence. She looked at the cat for a while, then kept walking.

The other day, when she was going to school, she saw the same cat again. This time she also looked at it for a moment, then went.

It was September's beginning. Chou was walking to her grandma's home. She saw the cat. This time it was laying under the fence, warming itslef in sun's rays. Chou came closer to cat and pet it. Cat scratched the girl. Chou ran home, crying.

In October, she saw that again, behind the fence. She got scarred and walked past that home faster. Cat looked at her sadly. Like he didn't mean to scratch her that time.

It was December. Chou was walking to a house of a friend, who broke her leg. Cat was sitting in front of the fence and looked at her wistfully. Chou felt fear. Cat begun to approach the girl. Chou closed her eyes. She was paralyzed with fear. Suddenly, she felt something wiping against her leg. She kneeled and pet the cat.

Cat sat on a snow and looked at Chou.

"Was it that scary, sweetheart? To pet me once more? I did not want to scratch you that day."

Chou looked at the cat surprised. It knows how to speak! And he has a pretty voice.

The end

Knocking on the door... from the afterlife

Band: Alice Nine&Kagrra with Kra in the background

Pairing: Tora&Akiya with Isshi&Nao, Izumi&Shin and Keiyu&Mai in the background

Rating: 15+

Genre: comedy, thriller

Series: "Life with a Ghost"

Warnings: paranormal existence

Note: "Shinohara?" risked Akiya, looking around. "You know. I don't believe in ghosts but I think I'll start to believe. You're here, right?"

Akiya threw Chibi's leash on the cupboard, put a CD into the player and sat on the bed. Tora wasn't home. He was alone. Even Chibi went to sleep and Chikin hid somewhere hard to find. One year ago he didn't feel so lonely on that day.

It was a day like any other through the year, but had a certain scheme to it - Kagrra, celebrating Isshi's birthday in his home or in a most convenient club, when they were touring. But now there's no Kagrra, and no Isshi.

Isshi is no more. Words that make Akiya feel like hitting his head on a wall. Firstly, because he was the one who found him and felt no pulse on his wrist with his fingers. Secondly, because Isshi was one of his best friends and guitarist couldn't come to terms with the fact that he died. Thirdly, because Nao cried all the time for month and a half. Before the camera - peace. As soon as red light went off, Nao went hysterical and there was no way to calm him down and people not knowing what's going on, were confused. Nao's hysteria was him laying on the floor, where he was standing at the moment then starting to shake and cry, which lasted until he was so tired he fell asleep. That's why shaking Nao needed to be taken to the car, then his home, then put in his bed. It lasted for a month. Then he calmed down a little, but hearing something about Isshi, or seeing something yellow (like Shin's new scarf or Izumi's mug) would trigger him and the show started again. It was only the beginning of September, when he got himself together. Propably...

Akiya flinched. He heard a weird sound, like water boiling in a kettle. He got up and went to the kitchen. On the cupboard there was a tea. Freshly made and hot. Akiya looked into the mug. It was his favorite tea. Tora couldn't make it, because he couldn't remember Hiroto, or Shou's bithday. He wasn't home anyway. Akiya knew only one person, who remembered stuff like that right away. But for few months that person is ...

Akiya went back to his room, when he heard a noise. There was a camera and a picture laying on his bed. Picture without him in it, but made by him. Picture, for taking which he got so yelled at, then two of his friend praisen him on their knees for it. But that picture shouldn't be here.

Akiya realised, the music was gone. He looked up. Numbers on a display screen were changing so fast, like someone was standing next to the music player and continuously pressed skip button. Remote was broken, so it was the only way to do it.

A melody could be heard, coming from speakers. Not some ordinary song. It was Kagrra,'s "Sakura ~saikai no hana~". Favorite song of...

Akiya almost spilled his tea, when ginger cat ran next to his leg, chased by Chibi. Chikin looked at the scene from behind an artificial flower on the shelves. Ginger jumped behind a wardrobe and sat next to the cat, while Chibi was barking really loud for his age. Chikin looked at the other cat, curled and went to sleep. She thought that if Chibi can chase the cat away, Otaki, because that was the name of the ginger cat, is no threat to her.

Otaki was Isshi's cat, who remembered birthdays, favourite things of his friends like color, tea or flowers, loved song still playing from the speakers and was on a picture held at the moment by shocked Akiya.

"Shinohara?" risked Akiya, looking around. "You know. I don't believe in ghosts but I think I'll start to believe. You're here, right?"

Akiya felt someone placing his hand on his arm. He knew that touch. He put his own on top of it so many times before the lives.

"That's why Nao is happy again." Akiya smiled lightly, grabbing hand on his shoulder and turned around.

Isshi looked like he didn't die at all. The only difference were his white clothes.

"I'm sorry." said Isshi, looking Akya in the eyes. " I didn't want you to find me. I just..."

"Didn't want to be alone, but also didn't want to be seen by Nao in that shape. I know." Akiya interrupted him.

"From where?" asked Isshi.

"I know you." answered Akiya. "I would do the same anyway."

"I don't think so." said Isshi. "You would tell Tora right away, he would panic for two years until you'd die in his arms. You're not me, Akki."

"Do you think wishing you something is a bad idea?." asked Akiya.

Isshi smiled lightly.

"If Yamiyo treats me like I'm still alive, I think you can do so too."- said Isshi.

"How much he treats you like a living person?" asked Akiya.

"As much as you think." replied Isshi.

"Then instead of wishing you something, I have a favor to ask." said Akiya. "Stay here as long as you possibly can. Nao won't live a day without you."

"I promise I'll stay with him until he'll be able to join me." replied Isshi.

Then the front door opened. Tora was standing in a doorway.

"I think I'm still in a bus and I'm sleeping." said Tora.

Isshi smiled.

"I'm sorry." he said, then turned to Akiya. "Akki, let go of my hand."

Akiya let loose of Isshi's hand, making him dissapear. Confused Tora flinched, when vocalist showed up next to him.

"I'm going back to Yamiyo. Maybe someday I'll come here again." Isshi smiled and vanished in thin air.

Otaki jumped from the wardrobe and ran through the still opened door.

"Akiya, what the hell was that?" asked shocked Tora.

"Isshi." Akiya shrugged, then sat on the bed and drunk down his tea, like it was a normal day.

* * *

"Hello?" Akiya picked up a phone call from Izumi.

"Sakura, tea, cat." said drummer.

"Izumida, better give my that phone or our Aki won't understand you." said Shin. "Or maybe you're some kind of medium, Akiya."

"Medium sees ghosts, who bring their cat, change tracks in music player and make tea?" asked Akiya.

He heard only silence.

"Judging by Shin's face, he came to you too, right?" asked third voice.

"Yes, Mai. He came to me too." replied Akiya, looking at Tora, who was still trying to understand what happened yesterday. "What's you vocalist doing?"

"My vocalist? He hid under the table and said he's not coming out as long as his dead friends gonna visit him." explained Mai. "Ukes are better with understanding supernatural experiences or is it just me?"

"I guess so." agreed Akiya. "Better go to bed instead of coughing here."

"Like Kousuke. Just like Kousuke. You fit each other. You two should be together." Mai sighted then hung up.

"So what, Aki? Are we looking for a medium?" asked Tora, sitting next to him.

"No, Amano." denied Akiya. "If Nao is happy, we should left things as they are."

Tora thinked about it for a moment, then noded his head. He came to a conclusion, he'll rather see ghosts than Nao laying on the floor in despair.

The end

Smile of lost memories

Band: D=OUT

Pairing: Reika&Hikaru

Rating: 15+

Genre: comedy, romans

Warnings: amnesia

Note: What will you do, if your beloved one forget you?

(It's old story from 2011, that's why Minase is here, not Naoto.)

Reika was sitting on a practice and stared at skipping Hikaru, who for a hundreth time had a good day for unknown reasons. Bassist wondered how that small, slim and fragile and full of positive energy person hasn't annoyed fate yet with his optimism and wide smile. The only more positive person known to him, who was even more cheerfull was some other musician, but some occurencies made Hikaru take the first place.

There was also something in Hikaru's beauty, tenderness and positivity that was so important for Reika - his cute, unvanishing smile was something, which bassist would like to look at a lot more. Maybe seven days a week, twenty four hours a day. Yes, that would be enough.

Hikaru was busy with looking around for guitar string, because he said that one of his "seems to be broken or something, because it's about to snap and he won't be able to tune it". Running around the room, because all young guitarist was able to do slowly was... absolutely nothing. So, Hikaru in a good mood was looking for a tuneable string didn't notice something on the floor - a cable from amplifier. Cable pranked Hikaru, who fell between the speakers, waving his hands in a funny way.

Reika comepletely forgot that bass needs tuning and it's his job to do it instead of staring at blonde guitarist. Instead getting to do this boring job, he ran to Hikaru and helped him to get up.

"Are you alright?" he asked.

Rest of the band appeared next to him. Maybe they wouldn't be so worried if Hikaru weren't... serious.

"My head hurts." replied Hikaru after a while. "Where am I?"

"On a practice, which hasn't started yet but should fifteen minutes ago. But some people" Minase looked at Kouki and Ibuki "very like to get late together and you had problems with your string."

"Thank you for explaining, but I have other question." said Hikaru. "Who are you?"

In that moment, Minase paled, Kouki and Ibuki looked at each other with fear and Reika looked like he was about to faint.

"Hikaru, what's going on?" asked Ibuki, puting his hands on his arms and looking straight in the eyes of younger friend.

"Hikaru? Who's..." Hikaru didn't finish his sentence, because Reika pulled his hand and forcefully dragged out of the room.

"We're going to hospital. Now." decided bassist.

The rest of them quickly picked up their stuff and went after him.

* * *

Reika was counting tiles on the waiting room's floor. Ibuki swinged on a chair and Kouki was writing something in his black notebook, which he took everywhere with him. Only Minase stayed with Hikaru in the doctor's office. Fear in bassist's eyes made him decide about not letting in Reika, not speaking about letting him stay there.

"It'll be fine." said Kouki emotionlessly.

Ibuki got up saying something about having to smoke or he'll go insane and walked away.

"It won't." denied Reika.

"It will." insisted Kouki "You'll see."

"I'm telling you it won't."

"And I'm telling you it will."

"Kouki, stop. It's pointless." sighted Reika. "It won't be okay, because he doesn't remember anything. And if he doesn't even remember his name, then he doesn't remember me. And if he doesn't remember me..."

"You'll never know if he loved you." murmured Kouki, closing his notebook. "Yes, I don't know how to comfort people. I'm sorry. I'm not Hikaru."

"But at bringing people down you're excellent." replied Reika.

Then the doctor's office door opened.

"Nothing." Minase shook his head, but his face got it's colors back. "Absolutely nothing."

"I hate being right." sighted Reika.

Kouki put his hand on his arm, but bassist shook it off.

"So what?" asked Ibuki, when he came back.

"Doctor said his memory might come back in few days." explained Minase. "But it's more possible that he'll remember everything in a few years or never."

"Another one can't comfort people." said Reika.

"Now we have to look after our confused little guy." explained Minase. "Kouki and Ibuki aren't fit for this job, because they can only look after eachother..."

"Eachother?" asked Hikaru.

"Nevermind." sighed Minase. "And I have my own guitarist to take care of. Reika?"

"What?" Reika looked at Minase with his red eyes.

"Will you look after Hikaru?" asked drummer.

"Sadist." replied Reika. "Of course, I'll look after him."

"Masohist." Minase fought back and put his hands on Hikaru's arms. "You'll stay with Reika. Okay, Hikaru?"

"Fine." agreed Hikaru.

Reika bringed Hikaru's cases into his house. Blonde guitarist looked at him curiously, closing the door behing him.

"Where are we, Ra-san?" he asked.

"Reika." corrected him Reika. "In my house."

"Why in your house, Ri-san?" asked Hkaru.

"Reika." sighted Reika. "Because I have to look after you."

"Why, Re-san?" Hikaru asked another question.

"Reika." yielded Reika, leaning on a wall. "Because you can't remember anything. That's why."

"Ah." understood Hikaru.

Reika showed Hikaru to a guest bedroom. Walls were beige, furnitures were brown and bed was quite big, though two people probably wouldn't fit in.

"If you'll need something, I'll be in the kitchen right behind a wall. You can come anytime." said Reika. Hikaru smiled lightly.

"Thank you, Rea-san." he said quietly.

"Reika." bassist corrected him once more and exited the room.

Hikaru sat on the bed and looked at angel figurine on the shelves.

"I'm far from being that." he said, smiling rakishly.

* * *

Reika was laying on the bed and looking at the ceeling. Hikaru lived in his house for a few days now and still couldn't remember anything. Not even notes or his life before joining D=OUT, or his name, even though bassist called him that, but guitarist didn't react at all.

"Ria-san, could you make me some tea?" asked Hikaru, going into the room. "I can't remember where it was..."

"Reika." murmured Reika and got up. "I'll make you tea. Just wait for a while."

Hikaru followed bassist with his eyes and went to his room. He sat on the bed and noticed a photo album on a cupboard. He picked it up and started to look at the photos. Then Reika came back.

"Hikaru, what are you doing?" he asked, putting cup on the cupboard. "Hikaru?"

"I'm looking at the pictures, Rei-san." explained Hikaru.

Reika sighed.

"Reika." he corrected guitarist, sitting next to him. "And this album is mine. You should ask first."

"Ask." repeated Hikaru after him.

"Reia-san, who's that?" Hikaru asked, pointing at Ibuki.

"I'm Reika." said Reika. "And that's Ibuki."

"And who's this, Rika-san?" Hikaru poked Kouki's picture.

"Reika." Reika hid his face in his hands. "That's Kouki."

"And this, Reka-san?" Hikaru pulled his fingers from his face and shoved in it Minase's photo.

"Reika." bassist layed on his back. "Minase, our drimmer."

"And who's this?" Hikaru took out one photo from the album and waved it before bassist's eyes. "Who's this?"

Reika opened his eyes. On a picture there was Hikaru's smiling face.

"You." answered Reika, closing his eyes again.

"Who are they for you?" asked Hikaru.

"Friends." replied Reika.

"Me too?" asked Hikaru. "Am I also a friend to you, Reika-san?"

"Re..." Reika stopped.

He realised two things. Hikaru got his name right. And the same Hikaru asked him a question he would like not to answer. Not yet.

"Tell me, Reika-san. Am I your friend?" insisted Hikaru.

Reika opened his eyes. Hikaru was leaning above him. His face was so close. So dangerously close.

"Hikaru..." whispered Reika.

"Am I only a friend to you, Reika-san?" asked Hikaru.

Reika looked at him, surprised.

"You.. Me... No." denied Reika. "You're not only a friend. You're someone more. But you can't remember me or anything that would make you trust me. And now you're propably going to run away to Minase, or Mr. and Mrs. Late, because what normal person with amnesia would stay with someone who confessed their love to them? Who?"

"It depends if that person really lost their memory, Minoru." said Hikaru.

"What? But..." Reika couldn't finish his sentence, because Hikaru leaned even more forward and kissed him.

Bassist blinked. What was that supposed to be?

"Hikaru?" Reika looked at a guitarist. "What are you... How you... Hikaru!"

"Yes?" Hikaru was smiling.

Like he always used to.

"Tell me you lost your memory at least for a moment." sighed Reika. "Just a moment."

"I don't want to lie." answered Hikaru.

"Who made this up?" asked Reika.

"Me and Minase." explained Hikaru. "Because you're so secretive, Minoru. No one would notice anything as long as you wouldn't start worrying. Minase called me, when you went to the shop yesterday. Only Kouki saw through it, but he's the vocalist. They notice more."

"You were pretending all this time?" Reika lifted Hikaru, grabbing his arms and sat, looking into his laughing eyes.

"Yes. From the very beginning." said Hikaru and smiled.

"You're a real devil." said Reika.

Hikaru laughted.

"But your devil, Minoru." replied Hikaru, hugging bassist. "Only yours."

The end

Fourteen petals of cherry blossom

Band: Kagrra,

Pairing: Isshi&Nao

Rating: 15+

Genre: comedy, angst, romance

Series: "Life with a Ghost"

Warnings: alcohol, paranormal existence, death

Note: Fourteen years, fourteen petals. Bitter-sweet dialogue.

First petal

Izumi: Nao, I found us a vocalist. Meet Isshi, we were together in me previous band. Isshi, this is Nao, my good friend from school.

Isshi: Nice to meet you, Nao-san.

Nao: Nice to meet you too, Isshi-san.

Second petal

Nao: Ikkun, what are you doing?

Isshi: Writing.

Nao: What?

Isshi: Lyrics.

Nao: What lyrics?

Isshi: Nao, when was the last time you felt how it is to be hit in the face by a fist?

Nao: But...

Isshi: Okay, sit. But don't talk.

Third petal

Nao: How about "Kagrra"?

Isshi: What?

Nao: You were thinking about new name for a band, so here's my proposition.

Isshi: Nao, no one will be able to pronounce this.

Izumi: Yes, let's fight. You're right. It makes band bond so well.

Shin: Izumi, you should be the leader.

Akiya: Who thinks Izumi should become the leader?

Isshi: He's the boss here anyway, so voting is pointless. And I like that name. Sometimes you have to make life difficult for other people.

Shin: You're an expert in this. Fans can't understand your lyrics anymore.

Izumi: Shin, be quiet, you're not making this situation any better.

Shin: But Izumi...

Izumi: Listen to the leader, Shin.

Fourth petal

Nao: Ikkun, why your hair is so long?

Isshi: What do you mean?

Nao: Can I braid it?

Isshi: Nao, please...

Nao: I'll do it anyway.

Isshi: I know.

Fifth petal

Nao: Ikkun, how do you sing so well?

Isshi: Nao, you drunk too much today.

Nao: But you sing so well. Like... Like a mermaid.

Isshi: Nao, go to sleep.

Nao: But really. You attract fans with your singing like a mermaid attracts sailors.

Isshi: Akiya, take him away.

Akiya: Me? Then stop that room first, because it's spinning and spinning...

Isshi: Kami-sama...

Sixth petal

Izumi: Have you noticed, how weirdly Nao is acting lately?

Shin looked at Izumi surprised, freezing with spoon halfway to his mouth.

Shin: Really? I haven't. But if I think about it, you're right.

Akiya: Isshi is nice to him.

Izumi: What?

Akiya: He's nice. Only for Nao.

Shin: Akiya, are you saying he...

Akiya: Yes. Both of them feel the same way about eachother. But of course they won't notice it.

Seventh petal

Nao: Ikkun, aren't you happy, we're major now?

Isshi: No.

Nao: Why?

Isshi: I have my reasons.

Nao: But look, we have a comma in our name and we play in bigger venues...

Isshi: They gave us some kids with ADHD to take care of. It really is wonderfull.

Nao: Huh?

Isshi: Huh, huh..

Hiroto: ALICE DESU!!!

Isshi: Example number one, Nao. Small squirrel named Hiroto.

Eight petal

Nao: What do you think, what about Shin and Akiya were talking about that time in the tourbus?

Isshi: I think, they were talking about us.

Nao: Why?

Isshi: They looked at us. That's logical.

Nao: For you. Not for me.

Isshi: Yamada, you're not thinking logically very often. You do something spontanously, then notice why it wasn't so good.

Nao: I need to buy a dictionary.

Isshi: Why?

Nao: But I doubt I'll find somewhere dictionary from vocalist, to Japanese.

Isshi: You're saying, my way of speaking is to sophisticated?

Nao: That's understatement, Shinohara.

Isshi: Even when you break my good mood, I can't be angry at you.

Nao: I love you to.

Nao laughted.

Ninth petal

Nao: So you can get angry at me.

Isshi: You were the one, who got angry, Yamada.

Nao: But it turned out, you can say "sorry".

Isshi: Yes, I can. I'm surprised.

Nao: Don't you think starry sky is beautifull?

Isshi: Starlesss night is prettier. You can imagine stars and with imagination, possibilities are endless.

Nao: Dark night more beautifull than starry one. Very interesting, Shino.

Isshi: You're also more beautifull than stars in the sky...

Isshi opened his eyes wide.

Isshi: Yamiyo.

Nao: What?

Isshi: For two weeks I've been thinking about some other way of abbrieviating your name. Yamiyo. It's perfect.

Nao: Melodic.

Isshi: And fits you perfectly.

Tenth petal

Nao: Shino! Why did you cut your hair?!

Isshi: Why you straighten yours?

Nao: Okay, I'm not asking anymore.

Akiya: Like a married couple.

Isshi: When I show you married couple, Akiya, you'll be sorry.

Izumi: Couldn't you guys start working or something?

Shin: Izumi, what do you expect from them? Come with me, I'll make you some tea.

Eleventh petal

Akiya fell asleep on two chairs next to each other, then fell from them.

Nao: What's with you and falling down after you wake up?

Akiya: Nao!

Isshi: What? What's going on?

Nao: You don't want to know, Shino.

Akiya: You don't have to know all our secrets.

Isshi: Secrets? You two have any secrets? From me?

Akiya: Yes, especially from you.

Isshi: Very funny, Akiya, really. Unbelievably funny, Tiger Lily.

Twelveth petal

Nao: You took me here, because?

Isshi: Because I wanna take you for a ride.

Nao: Car is on a parking lot.

Isshi: Did I say something about cars?

Isshi sat Nao in front of him and grabbed his hands.

Nao: And I thought you were kidding, when you said, you can ride a horse.

Isshi: Oh, Yamiyo. Sometimes I really don't get you. Now hold in here.

Nao grabbed Isshi's hands, then closed his eyes. All of it seemed to be just an illusion.

Thirteenth petal

Isshi: Yamiyo?

Nao: Yes?

Isshi: What would you do if I were gone?

Nao: I'd throw away my cane and use our balcony.

Isshi: What walking cane? What balcony?

Nao: You know, when I'll be over sixty, I'll probably won't be able to move around by myself. And I couldn't live. So I would kill myself.

Isshi: Don't even say that. You can't do that.

Nao: Why?

Isshi: Because...

Nao for the first time saw that Isshi couldn't find words.

Isshi: I need to write a letter.

Fourteenth petal

Nao: Shino?

Isshi: Yes?

Nao: Why are you still here?

Isshi: I don't understand.

Nao: Why won't you go to the other side?

Isshi: Because you're not there, Yamiyo.

The end