Fall in sleep, fall in love

Band: Kagrra,

Pairing: Isshi&Nao

Rating: 16+

Genre: fluff, angst

Warnings: death

Note: Nao realizes something about his feelings.

Filming of the new music video finally came to an end. I stretched, mumbling to myself how much I wanna be home right now. I looked around. Everyone started to pack their things, guitarists played with each other out of boredoom and our drummer looked at me like he expected me to perform a miracle.

"Try waking him up. The last time I tried, I got punched in the face and I'd rather not repeat this." he pointed at you.

You were sleeping on a chair, while sitting. You were bend over and had your arms crossed. You looked so funny I laughted.

"Wake up, sleepy head." I approached you and bumped your arm, smiling.

You only waved your hand and that's how waking you up went. I sighed. I didn't want to shock you while waking you up, but there seemed to be no other option. Or maybe...

I gently embraced your arms and legs, then lifted you off the chair. I thought to myself either you should loose weight or I should excercise more. But that was nothing compared to the faces Akiya, Shin and Izumi were making, when I carried you towards the car, with which we came here.

"He's that strong?" I heard Akiya's voice behind my back.

"I wouldn't have guessed." said Shin.

"At least he didn't get punched." murmured Izumi.

"You got punched?" asked Akiya.

"In our previous band, when I tried to wake him up. Wasn't a smart idea." Izumi gave out a short laught.

I put you on one of the seats and fastened the seabelt. I sat next to you and felt you fall down on my lap. I chuckled and looked at you. You looked so cute and innocent, like you'd never become that mean person you are, when you wake up. And when I pet your hair, bleached and colored to the point of being comepletely messed up, I realised something. I realised something I tried to not think about for about a year or more. 

I understood that you sleeping like this is something I'd like to see every morning. I realised I love you.

I closed my eyes. I listened to your calm breathing, completely ignoring laughts of our bandmates, sitting behing us.

That day I didn't even think about how two years later your arms will save me from the fall from the balcony. That the next thing you'll do after that will be the cutest way of confessing your love. That for the next year I'll try to change you and throw you out of my house for three weeks. That you'll say sorry and will start calling me "Yamiyo". That next three years later we will announce our disbandment following four months later. And that in another four month death will take you away from me.

No, I wouldn't have guessed that. I would never knew you won't be here in the next eight years.

The End

"Naze?"

Band: 168 -one sixty eight-&Migimimi sleep tight

Pairing: Aoi&Ryohei

Rating: 16+

Genre: angst with happy ending

Warnings: depression, injury

Note: Ryohei is jealous, Aoi is finally honest with him... And there is snowing.

The sound of the old rusty lock could be heard. Ryohei went through the door and closed it hastily, like he was afraid that someone chased him.

The guitarist threw his bag and went to the closet. He opened the bar, took out the bottle of sake, sat in the armchair and poured himself some alcohol.

He looked around. There was dust laying everywhere, the last time he cleaned was half a year ago... Or more. He hated this flat, this floor, this furniture, that clock hanging on the wall, the view from the window, everything...

He sat on the floor. He also hated himself. He couldn't keep Aoi by his side... Actually, Aoi didn't really left him, or cheated on him. Ryohei wasn't so sure about it though... But he looked around, thought a lot, remembered, talked in his sleep and laughed. Hah, the way he chuckled about an unexpected meeting with Akiya. Ryohei knew, Ryohei was sure there used to be something between both of the musicians. Or still is, maybe. Aoi like always goes from one person to another...

Ryohei layed on the old carpet, he was sitting on earlier. The carpet smelled of old people and a wet dog since the guitarist could remember. There was also this huge gray stain on the ceiling. He hated this place.

Ryohei closed his eyes. He'll be laying here until someone finds him. That's a good plan, very good... No, it's awful, bad, pointless.

Phone rang. Inzargi is calling. He's probably worried. Wow, someone's worried about him.

No, he's just complaining about Gou, how he's so insensitive, oh his poor butt is in pain. How sad.

Ryohei threw his phone against the wall. He started to hate his own band. Just lovely.

He went to the bathroom and looked in the mirror. His tears left smudges on his face, his eyes were red from all the crying. He didn't want to see this reflection. He hated that mirror, he hated himself.

He heard a doorbell. Who could that be?

"Can I borrow some sugar? Why are you crying?" his neighbour was worried about him.

"I was cutting onions, I'll bring you some sugar." Ryohei did a fake smile and went to the dusty sugar container, then pushed it into the lady's hands. "You can keep it. I stopped sweetening my tea."

"Thank you." the neighbour was confused and tried to say something else, but Ryohei slammed the door in front of her face.

He got back to the bathroom. Now he looked worse than few minutes ago. He lost control over his emotions. He hit the mirror with his fist, making it break into few pieces. Blood flowed along Ryohei's hand, staining his blue shirt.

He fell to the floor. He hated the sight of blood. It always made him faint, but this time he at least tried to stay conscious.

He heard someone knocking on the door, then knocking turned into banging. Then the doors... Fallen down. That wasn't really weird, since he should change those old, rusty hinges long time ago.

"Ryohei?!"

Who was that? Inzargi? No, Inzargi wouldn't scream as much. Maybe Gou? No, he would scream louder. So maybe...

Ryohei made a mistake. He looked at his blood covered hand, which made him fall into darkness, loosing his consciousness.

* * *

He woke up in his bed. Was it a dream? No, it wasn't. He wouldn't feel strong pain coming from his hand which was... Bandaged.

"Who?" Ryohei got up.

He was still in his flat, so maybe it was Inzargi. Gou didn't know how to use bandages.

"Ryohei." bold and cold voice made Ryohei jump.

He looked right. Aoi was standing in the doorway, with bloodstained shirt and terrified expression.

"You woke up."

"Yeah, I guess..." Ryohei looked at his hand. "You know I didn't do it on purpose, right?"

Aoi looked at him, then closed his eyes.

"I hoped so..." Ryohei thought he heard Aoi's voice shake. "Why did you do this again? Why did you ran away?"

"You were laughting." Ryohei looked down. "When you were talking about Akiya, you were chuckling. Like a shy teenage girl."

"I chuckled." Aoi leaned on a doorway, covering his face with his hand. "What else I did?"

"You looked behind you..."

"So we're back to the begining." Aoi turned his back to Ryohei. "We're back to your jealousy and my unstable feelings towards you, right?"

"You're not helping..."

"You're not helping either."

"Shinobu, why aren't you looking at me?" Ryohei asked.

The room became silent.

"Ryohei..." quiet, shaking Aoi's voice could be heard. "Listen... I can't..."

Aoi turned around and approached the bed, sat down on it and pulled Ryohei closer. He was shaking. Was he...

"You're crying." said Ryohei.

"..."

"You're really crying. Not on the stage. Next to me."

"Quiet."

"Are you crying because of me?"

Aoi didn't say anything. He pulled Ryohei even closer to himself.

"Please, don't run away. Stop running away." Aoi whispered. "Please, trust me."

"But you said it yourself that your feelings change a lot."

"So make sure I won't want anyone else."

"But I don't have any strenght left."

"So find more."

"Why?"

"Because I love you." said Shinobu.

Ryohei thught that both of them stopped breathing after those words.

Ryohei slowly pushed Aoi away.

"What did you say?"

"I love you."

"Say it again, because I don't understand."

"I love you, Ryohei." Aoi looked like saying those words was something new for him, even though he said it a third time already.

"Kami-sama..." Ryohei thought he's going to faint again. "You really said that?"

"Do I have to sing it to you?" Aoi smiled.

"Could you?"

"Ryohei, please."

"I love you too, Shinobu." Ryohei kissed his lips.

Aoi looked through the window. It was snowing.

"Here." the vocalist got up and pulled Ryohei behind him.

Ryohei put on his jacket and shoes and he was about to go, when Aoi stopped him.

"Where are you going?" Shinobu put a scarf around his neck.

"You'll catch a cold." he said, putting a cap on his head.

"Nobu-chan." Ryohei hugged him.

"You're impossible." Aoi laughed, opening the door.

Snow was falling and the door to the building closed with a bang.

"Why?" suddenly asked Ryohei, interrupting the silence going on for minutes.

"What "why"?" Aoi looked at him surprised.

"Why did you said it to me just today?"

Aoi sighed. There was silence again.

"You really need to dig deeper, right?" Aoi said after a while.

"Will you tell me or not?"

"You're so stubborn." Aoi laughted. "I just never told this to anyone before."

"Anyone? Even to Naoki?"

"Especially to him. Isshi would kill me." explained Aoi.

"Isshi? But he's..."

"I'll explain it to you later." interrupted him Aoi, looking at a teenage girl in glasses, showing some interest in their conversation.

"Okay, so why didn't you tell this to anyone?" asked Ryohei, squatting and lifting some snow off the pavement.

"I didn't have the courage to do it." Aoi explained.

The second teenage girl approached the other one. Taller and probably older.

"Big sis, what are you doing?" she asked.

No, she was younger.

"Am I dreaming or is it Ao?" asked the shorter one.

"You know, if Ryohei is our neighbour for a few years now, it was obvious even your Aoi could come here."

"Would be cool if he'd bring Akiya with him." wondered the shorter one.

"Nao's more possible." said the younger one, then she got hit with a snowball by Ryohei.

"You'll catch a cold, meddling kids. Go home, now!" he yelled laughing and watching teenagers clean the snow off the taller one's jacket.

"We're sorry." said both sisters and both went home.

"Who was that?" Aoi asked.

"Chou and Yume. My neighbours." explained Ryohei. "One is Akiya's fan and the other one is Naoki's fan and they both were probably on all Kagrra,'s lives around here. Shinobu?"

"Yes?"

"Why do you actually love me?"

"You're silly." Aoi kissed his cheek. "I love you just because."

The end

Unexpected meeting

Band: Kagrra,, 168 -one sixty eight-

Pairing: mentioned Tora&Akiya and Aoi&Ryohei

Rating: 16+

Genre: comedy

Series: Vaniila&Raspberry

Warnings: -

Note: "Doing what young brother wants you to do can end up in an interesting way."

"Akiya, could you drop Sayuri at her grandma's? I need to take care of some businesses and I'll be able to leave my house in two days and I'm not putting her in a train only with four other kids." Akiya heard through the phone, when he got woken up by the ringtone at seven in the morning.

It was his younger brother, who remembered about having a sibling only when he needed something from them.

"Doesn't Sayuri have a brother?" asked Akiya, getting up from the bed.

"Yeah, but that dumbass is in that witch's place." said Kaede. "You haven't met him yet, have you? He wasn't even at our wedding because he's so overworked."

"And I have been." noticed Akiya, puring the cat food into the Chikin's bowl. "Masashi is coming back in two weeks, so I could drive Sayuri and the kids."

"Thanks, Akiya. You're doing me a favor." said Kaede and hung up.

Akiya got out of the car. Mito, his home city, didn't change much since he was a kid. It wasn't that Akiya haven't been here for twenty years. That was just something he noticed.

Two kids run out of the house towards him - seven years old Sayu and six years old Kunio. Sayuri, with two years old twins - Yuri and Fumio, joined them a little later, then Kaede followed them, holding suitcases.

"Uncle Akiya!" older kids embraced Akiya.

Opposed to their father, Akiya was someone they really liked.

"I'm happy to see you too." Akiya laughted. "Hi, Kaede, hello, Sayuri. How are the twins?"

"They're growing." Sayuri laughted, while Kaede gave his brother his car keys.

"Keys to our car, because the kids won't fit in yours." said Kaede. "When you'll get Sayuri, you'll give them back to me. Now give me yours. I need to somehow move around."

Akiya sighed and gave Kaede his keys. His brother was always bossy and rude.

After packing the suitcases and putting the kids in their seats, Akiya got into the car and moved the driver's seat a little.

"Okay, I was driving that thing once. I'll just probably bump into a pole." Akiya laughted.

"Don't you even try to hit a pole." yelled Kaede fastening Fumio's seatbelts. "Go. The witch is waiting."

"Kaede!" Sayuri looked at him angry.

"Bye bye." Kaede waved at them and Akiya started the engine.

They were going for half an hour now, when Sayu, who was looking through the window leaned forward and asked Akiya a question:

"Uncle Aki, can you tell us some fun story from your life?"

"Fun story from my life..." Akiya wondered. "Yeah, I can tell you if you want."

He told them some of the stories. One about Isshi loosing his sunglasses and complaining about sun shining into his eyes, then it turned out it was Nao, who took them away from him. Or how Shn was obsessed over yogurts and ate them daily. How Izumi found a cat, then it turned out it was a female cat and he had a litter of kittens in his house. Or the one about Nao falling from the stairs and insisting he's fine, until he asked about the pink elephant playing the drums in the corner of the room. Or how he slipped on an icy pavement, fell ito the snow and went to the practice covered in snow and Isshi called him a snowman.

There was dark outside and kids have fallen asleep. Akiya drove into the Sayuri's grandma's house driveway and got out of the car. He helped Sayuri wake up the kids and taking out the suitcases.

"Hello, brother!" - called Sayuri.

Akiya, leaning over the suitcases, didn't know who was she talking to.

"This is my brother in law, Akiya. Can you help him with the luggage? What are you laughting about?"

"Nothing, sis. Hi, Aki!"

Akiya almost hit his head on the car's roof because of getting up so suddenly. He looked Sayuri's way and next to her was standing...

"Aoi?" Akiya blinked.

No, this can't be happening.

"Who?" Sayuri looked at Akiya then at her brother. "Shinobu, do you know each other?"

"Yes." Aoi covered his mouth with a hand and almost sat down on the stairs. "We know each other very well."

"Good, you don't have to repeat that." Sayuri smiled. "Kids, come here, there's something... weird going on."

Sayuri ran away from the garage, pulling Fumio and Yuri with her and Sayu and Kunio loyally followed her.

"Sayuri is your sister?"

"Kaede is your brother?"

"You were so overworked." Akiya noded. "Ayabie was touring, huh?"

"Yeah." Aoi laughted again.

"Can I know what's so funny?" Akiya asked.

"You know." Aoi leaned on a wall. "My sister was brought up, well we were brought up... Believing that sex is supposed to happen only after the marriage. And as opposed to me, she kept her promise to the parents and grandma."

"So you're laughting, because...?"

"You and your brother were mine and my sisters first times." Aoi stretched. "Let's get those suitcases."

"I could expect everyone but you." Akiya entered the Aoi's grandma house.

"You're not really interested with your brother's family, are you?" noticed Aoi.

"Let's say that Kaede is not so much interested in me." said Akiya. "And he doesn't think I should at least know his brother in law's name."

"I knew your name, but I didn't put two and two together." said Aoi.

"How is Ryohei doing?" Akiya asked.

Aoi flinched.

"He's alive and well." said Aoi. "I asked him if he wan't to come along, but my compassionate uke needs to help Inzargi and Gou in their marriage troubles, so the world could be beautiful again."

"I was asking about your relationship." explained Akiya.

"It's all well." Aoi put down the suitcases in a room, where Sayuri already sat down. "Grandma will be back in half an hour. She went shopping with the neighbour. Do you want some tea?"

"If you could." Akiya smiled.

Aoi turned around and ran downstairs.

"Yuri and Fumio are asleep, Kunio and Sayu are watching cartoons, so I can finally ask you two." said Sayuri. "Akiya, was there... something between you and my brother?"

"Shouldn't you ask him first?"

"Like he's gonna tell me anything!" Sayuri burst out laughing. "I hardly got him to come out to me about his bisexuality. Not talking about who he slept with."

"I slept with him twice." answered Akiya, looking out if Aoi is coming back. "And that's pretty much it."

"Was he good?"

"Sayuri..."

"Okay, I'm not asking about more details." Sayuri chuckled, seeing his brother in the doorway.

"You told her?" Aoi looked at Akiya.

"I spared her the details." said Akiya.

Aoi shook his head.

"And I'm making you tea, kids." Aoi sighed and sat in the armchair. "I cannot leave you alone without you talking about me behind my back."

"Hey, Aoi. Are you still using that raspberry lip balm?" asked Akiya leaning on a doorway. "It was sweet."

"Akiya!" Aoi frowned and Sayuri laughed.

Akiya smiled. Doing what young brother wants you to do can end up in an interesting way.

THE END

Vanilla

Band: Kagrra,&168 -one sixty eight-

Pairing: Akiya&Aoi

Rating: 16+

Genre: comedy, romance

Series: "Vanilla&Raspberry"

Warnings: some erotic scenes

Note: "That night wasn't dark. The sky was clear and I... I felt alive again. This was... Beautiful."

"Shinobu?" Ryohei hugged my arm, while I was reading a book on my bed.

"Yes?"

"Did you sleep with anyone before me?"

"Uhh, yes." I sighed, while flipping a page. "What about it?"

"Were they better than me?"

I frowned a little. The same thing again. He let his jealousy take over him. Ryo, my sweetheart, are you going to run away from me again?

"No." I replied and pet his head.

I lied. Of course Ryohei was good in bed. In fact better than most of people I slept with, but...

* * *

That night was dark. There were no stars on the sky. Even the moon was hiding behind the clouds.

I sat on his knees and started to unbutton his shirt.

"Shinobu, do you think we'll remember something from this night?" he asked.

"I will. I'll certainly remember. Or maybe I'll forget in the morning for a moment... But only for a moment. I promise!"

"You should swear you'll remember." he said firmly.

"I swear."

"Shinobu, I was just kidding! You're so easy to control when you're drunk." he laughted.

His laught was so warm...

"I'm not like that!" I protested.

"Be quiet or you'll wake up neighbours." he warned me.

"Don't..."

I didn't finish, because his warm and soft lips closed mine.

"I can't remember... When was the last time someone kissed me like that." I said quietly.

"Do you want more?" he asked.

I thought that was a rhetorical question.

I looked into his black and deep eyes. Rough but pleasant feeling hads moved along my body. His skin was warm and delicate. His kisses were long and passionate. I felt... Alive.

Morning wasn't the best. I remembered everything, even though not instantly. Then he left and I... I didn't even thank him.

"Aoi?" he asked, seeing me in front of his doors.

"Yes?"

"Something happened?" he asked.

"I... No." I chickened out.

"You stand in the doors to my room and say you don't have a reason to be here?" he smiled, clearly amused by this situation.

"Akiya?"

"Yes?"

"Let's do it again. This time while sober." I said.

"If you want it so much." he shrugged.

"I don't want "this". I want you." I pulled his tie and kissed him.

"You're a cute uke, Shinobu." he laughted, closing the door behind me.

"If you think so." I hugged him. "You smell like vanilla."

"It's my shower gel." he explained. "Are you going to stand here and hug me or?"

"You're warm. It's cold in my room." I said.

"I'll close your raspberry chapstic flavored lips with a kiss if you're going to talk so much." - he laughted again.

He didn't laught as much last night.

"It's not a chapstic. It's a lip balm." I corrected him, unbuttoning his shirt.

He didn't have any clothes besides plaid shirts?

"But I'll close your lips anyway." he pulled me closer for a kiss.

I instantly felt hot. It was weird. When I kissed him it felt completely different from when he kissed me.

"By the way..." he started, stoping the kiss and taking off my shirt. "Interesting combination, right? Vanilla and raspberry. Sweet."

"Like a dessert." I chuckled.

Kami-sama, I was chuckling back then. I wasn't fot for a seme.

That night wasn't dark. The sky was clear and I... I felt alive again. This was... Beautiful.

* * *

"Shinobu!"

I flinched, taken out of my dreams. Ryohei looked at me angrily, like he was about to gouge my eyes out.

"What?"

"I'm talking to you for fifteen minutes now and you're not even listening to me!" Ryohei sighed.

"Oh, honey, you're overreacting." I laughted and kissed him.

"Wild strawberries" I thought. "They will never be better than vanilla."

I laughted when I realized I'm unstable with my feelings. But I wouldn't cheat on anyone. It's tactless. It's better to leave someone and then find someone new. This will hurt that person much less.

I looked at Ryohei. No, I didn't want anyone to hurt him. I cared about him too much. Does it mean that...

The end