Someday

Band: 168 -one sixty eight-&Moran

Pairing: Aoi&Hitomi, mentioned Soan&Hitomi (one-sided)

Rating: 17+

Genre: romance

Warnings: -

Note: "I want to save you from drowning in black abyss of loneliness."

 And again. I fall asleep in someone else's arms, not yours. Wait, no, I'm not. I'm just laying, listening to his calm hearbeat. How many times I seduced another bandman or a fan to forget that I am a coward?

He strokes my hair, like he knew. Like he knew that I'm not thinking about him, that my soul is with you, that I smell the scent of cigarettes, strawberries and mint, when I close my eyes...

"Are you okay?" he asks.

I can hear that he's worried about me. He always had a golden heart. Always has been first to help...

"I'm okay" I say quietly. "Shinobu?"

"Yes?"

"Have you ever been scared of telling someone about your feelings, because you didn't want to destroy your friendship?"

Only silence responds me. Oh, right, I'm such a hopeless case that everyone can only be queit. I'm in my thirties and I'm following someone for seven years. Someone who only treats me like a brother. And I even can't confess my love for him...

"I've never done it" he whispers.

I'm looking at his eyes, confused.

"What are you talking about? You were in so many relationships. You had to tell that to someone before."

"No" he smiles, a little embarrassed. "And what relationships? I can count on fingers my serious relationships. Yuki, Tsuki, Hanako, Ryohei... Yup, only them."

"Why did you broke with Ryohei?" I ask, taking a glass of champagne which bubbles disappeared a long time ago from the shelf."

"Exactly because of this" he replies. "Because I was scared to tell him that I love him, just like you are scare to tell Soan about it."

I choke. How does he know?

"How did you guess?" I wipe my mouth with the back of my hand. He's smiling.

"Hitomi, we didn't spend a night together for the first time" he explains. "And non stop repeating name "Tomofumi" means something, right?"

"I'm sorry, it was probably uncomfortable situation for you..." I sigh.

He hugs me.

"Hitomi..." he kisses my forehead. "Maybe you're handsome, atrractive vocalist who can have every fan, but you love hiding under someone's wings. You are a good person, good people cry most often. And because of that, my wings are yours, because I want to save you from drowning in black abyss of loneliness. Someday you'll have these which you desire. But now we have each other and this beautiful night before us.

"Thank you" I say and he kisses me, for the second time saving me from this cold and empty feeling inside.

Someday I'm gonna tell you. I'm gonna do it. And you'll melt this ice in my heart. Some day. For sure.

The end