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Silence in the Darkness

Band: ViViD&Alice Nine Pairing: Shin&Shou Rating: 17+ Genre: comedy, romance Warnings: some erotic scenes Note: Shou has a nightmare...

Wednesday, 26 October 2022

Normal Day

Band: Moran

Pairing: Ivy&Vivi, Soan&Hitomi

Rating: 17+

Genre: comedy

Warnings: -

Note: Ivy wants to cheer up Vivi, Hitomi loves chocolate and Sizna has some kind of sugar addiction.


Normal day in work. Ivy streched lazily and entered the room, where they've been recording a new promo video. Well, he left and entered the room about three times, because he couldn't find a place for himself. They haven't recorded scenes with him yet, except for those with the whole band thay they recorded at the beginning. It was Vivi's turn now.


Ivy stopped for a moment. How exactly he felt about this blonde guitarist? He's been thinking about it for a long time. Vivi was a little cheerful and childish, but he was only twenty one years old now, so...


However, it was something in this cute smile of Vivi that made Ivy want to stop the time and watch guitarist's face for a longer moment.


A voice broke him out of his reverie. He turned to see Sizna, who was hugging the door.


"People don't understand us, people are strange" said Sizna, petting the door.


"Si-san, did you overdose sugar again?" asked Ivy, looking at him, confused.


"I didn't overdose sugar, Ivy. Monko-chan and me are getting married" replied Sizna.


"So I was right" sighed Ivy. "So-san, Si-san probably found Hi-san's chocolates and he's raving!"


"Again?" Soan stopped reading a newspaper and looked at Ivy.


Hitomi took his head from Soan's shoulder and looked sleepily at Ivy.


"Are you saying that Sizna ate my pralines?" he asked, probably not fully awake yet.


"Yes and he's in love with the door again" Ivy replied.


He liked Sizna. It was impossible to dislike him. Until he overdosed on sugar. Sizna always fell in love with the doors then. No matter, which doors.


"Wait a minute" Hitomi stood up. "He ate my pralines?"


"Eh, yes" Ivy blinked.


Was Hitomi upset? Well, Hitomi only got frustrated on a few occasions - when someone ate his candy, when someone was late for rehearsal and especially, when someone flirted with Soan. In the first case there was still some chance of survival, in the second case you could live only because the vocalist didn't want to look for another musician for the band, and in the third case... Well, usually calm and shy vocalist suddenly became some evil incarnate.


A moment later Sizna and his doors were brutally separated when Hitomi grabbed the guitarist's hand and pulled him along with him.


"Work, Sizna, work is waiting. And I don't care if you love the door, the door won't love you back because it's a dead object used to lock rooms."


"But Monko-chan..."


"You can even call them "itoshi", but now it's time for scenes with you, so get over that break-up. And remember" Hitomi leaned over Siza and looked at his eyes. "My chocolates are mine. And Tomofumi is mine too."


"But I wasn't flirting with..."


"But it would be good for you if you remembered it" Hitomi said. "Now take your guitar and go pretend you're playing it. But it has to be pretty pretending!"


Sizna stood up and sent Hitomi murderous sight. He sighed and went to the shooting plan.


Ivy sighed and looked at Vivi. He was leaning on the wall and staring at the ceiling.


"Beautiful scratches, huh?" he asked the guitarist, who was slightly surprised.


"What?"


"Scratches. On a ceiling. Such a mosaic is created. Oh look and there are some stains" Ivy pointed to the corner of the room. "Oh, and the wall is cracking there. You see? Oh, and these boards, look how rotten. One is missing. Where are we? Mr. Toothless Mamoru's hovel or what?"


Meanwhile Vivi almost fell to the floor. The bassist looked at him, smiling.


"I see that I cheered you up. A bad thing is that I did it because of making an idiot out of myself."


"An idiot?" Vivi stopped laughing. "You aren't an idiot for me, you're, I don't know, cute or something..."


Hitomi coughed and Soan grabbed his hand, pulling him and mumbling something about searching for a coffee machine.


"Cute?" Ivy looked at Vivi, who reminded him of strawberries or tomatoes in this moment, because of his red cheeks.


"Etto..."


"You are cute too" said Ivy, leaned over the guitarist. "And I don't like when you're sad or broody, because I worry about you."


"Etto..."


"Yes, I love you too" he said and kissed Vivi gently, hugging his waist.


"Why they can show their love, but I can't?!" they heard Sizna's angry voice.


Soan laughed. Hitomi only chuckled quietly.


Yes, it was a normal day.


The end

Wednesday, 19 October 2022

Alcohol is harmful to those who are sober

Band: Alice Nine, Kra, Gazette, Screw, ViViD, Dauto, Rave, Anli Pollicino, Kagrra,

Pairing: Tora&Akiya, Saga&Shou, Nao&Hiroto, Reika&Hikaru, Kouki&Ibuki, Shin&Shindy, Ivu&Ko-ki, Ryoga&Reno, Yasuno&Yuhra, Ruki&Uruha, Aoi&Kai, Ren&Mikuru, You&Nisa, Byou&Jin, Kazuki&Rui

Rating: 17+

Genre: idk

Warnings: alcohol, non-con elements

Note: Sometimes being sober is dangerous. At least you should be sure that you have trusted friends.

(It's old story from 2014, that's why Minase is here, not Naoto.)


 He had never liked such parties. With the whole PSC, where everyone got drunk one by one, and he was sitting in the corner with a glass of water and just stared at the whole group, wondering if he might not drink even a beer that day, because he couldn't stand some people while sober. Sometimes he just couldn't take it all, and then woke up with a hangover and no memories of the night before, but at least he didn't have to force himself to smile as the barely conscious Tora told him a joke about the rainbow unicorn. Well, this joke was a sign that he has to start looking for Akiya, who is rolling somewhere under the table, because if Amano drinks one more beer, they won't come back home or hotel by  themselves.


Shou sighed and stood up, walking over Ivu lying on the floor. He tried to pick him up earlier, but Ivu was too drunk to understand, what's going on and tried to break Shou's fingers, so he gave up.


Shou walked to the slightly ajar closet and peered inside. Hikaru was asleep snuggled into Reika, mumbling something softly. Shou wondered, if he should wake them up, but decided they probably wouldn't be responsive anyway, so he preferred to leave them there.


"Shou-kun, have you sheen Jin?" Byou walked to Shou, almost tripping over his own legs. "I caaaaan't fin' him..."


"He's probably under the table" Shou pointed to the curled blonde ball that was Screw's drummer.


"Shank you" Byou went in the direction Shou indicated.


Ohara sighed for a second time in last few minutes and moved to the other room. Here, as usual, Ren stuck to Kouki's leg, to which Kouki didn't react at all, because he slept cuddled up with Ibuki. Mikuru sat next to Ren and sang a song by Megamasso under his breath. Yuhra tried to explain to Yasuno that it wasn't a good idea to step out of the window, and the musicians from Born argued about who gets to use Taizo lying on the floor as a pillow. Besides, Nao and Hiroto slept with Tora and Akiya on a mattress. Shou was sure that this mattress wasn't there, when he was in this room last time, but was glad that at least they're comfortable.


In the next room, Kazuki was telling Rui some jokes that sober Shou couldn't understand, but luckily Screw's bassist was drunk enough to laugh at them. Ko-ki and Minase had just made a bet as to whether Reno would slip off Ryoga, who has been his mattress, and Manabu was to make sure neither of them faked the result. Shou shook his head in disbelief. Sometimes he felt like he's the oldest of everyone here.


"Shou-san, have you seen my bandmates?" asked almost sober Nisa, trying not to drop totally wasted You.


"Ren and Mikuru are in the second room, but..."


"Nagi disappeared in the bathroom fifteen minutes ago, he probably fell asleep there. Thank you, Shou-san" Nisa pulled You to the second room.


Ohara entered the last room. Rave's drummer, who finally left the bathroom, was sleeping on the blanket next to the sofa. He didn't care about Keiyu, who was poking him with a pencil, making Reita laugh. Kai was sleeping on the sofa with his head on Aoi's lap, who now looked at Shou.


"If you want to know, Shou-kun, Saga-kun is in the bathroom" announced Aoi, shaking cigarette ash into the ashtray. "Shin-kun was here a few minutes ago and he asked about you and his band, and then someone called him, probably Shindy-kun. Okay, I'm gonna sleep now."


Aoi picked up Kai for a moment and laid down next to him. Shou sighed and wanted to leave the room, but someone grabbed his arm.


"Hey, Hoppy, are you goin' somewhere?" asked Ruki, making Uruha laugh.


He even slipped off the chair.


"Let me go, Ruki, or I'll punch you" growled Shou, trying to break away from Ruki, but it only resulted in Gazette's vocalist tightening his grip.


"You're so funny!" Ruki laughed.


His laughter was so loud that it should wake up everyone within a kilometer, but Aoi began to snore instead. Ruki dragged Shou towards the brown door and unlocked it with a key he got from some unknown place.


"I said >>let me go<<" Shou pushed Ruki away from himself, but he laughed again and pushed Shou on the floor.


Gazette's smug vocalist straddled him.


"Get off me, Ruki."


"Okie dokie" Ruki, still sitting on Shou, locked the doors. "D'ya know that you can steal everythin' from Taizo, when he's asleep? He should be more careful about his guests."


"You're drunk."


"We're all drunk" Ruki leaned over Shou. "In fact, I've only been waitin' for such an opportunity for years. To make you traumatized as much as possible, Hoppy. But there was always Isshi or Saga, who is now sleeping in the bathroom, intoxicated with the sleepin' pills I put in his drink. I'm such an evil dude, right, Hoppy?"


"Ruki, what are you..." Shou froze for a moment, when Ruki kissed him greedily, but then he pushed him away and stood up abruptly, throwing Ruki off of himself. "Stop it!"


"Funny how you try to defend yourself" Ruki grabbed the chair Shou was trying to knock him out with. "It won't do anythin', Hoppy, today you're mine."


Ruki threw back the chair and was hit with a fist by Shou. He wiped his injured lip and looked at his fingers.


"That's cute" said Ruki, when Shou tried to open the door.


Ruki grabbed Shou's arms and threw him on the floor again.


"Do you want to leave, Hoppy? Well, you can't. We have to play..."


Thud! The door to the room blew off its hinges and Shin literally burst into the room and stood up from the floor. He looked at confused Ruki sitting on terrified Shou and clenched his hands into fists.


"I knew it" he said and, before whoever could say anything, he punched Ruki in the face.


Ruki hit the wall with his back. He stood up, still shocked, and tried to open his left eye, but he couldn't, because it was already swelled.


"Stupid kid" Ruki sighed. "Do you really must have a bodyguard, life loser?" asked Ruki, smiling meanly, which caused him to bounce off the wall again, and blood dripped from the corner of his mouth.


"Never insult Ohara Kazumasa in front of me" growled Shin, clenching fingers on Ruki's shirt. "And if you try to touch him again, even Uruha won't recognize you. And if Saga-san will be sober and conscious, then you're dead. Do you understand?"


Ruki shivered with fear. Only now he understood that it was better not to mess with Shin after all.


"I'll go lookin' fou ishe" said Ruki, gently pushing Shin away from himself and went towards the door.


Shin sighed and turned to shocked Shou.


"He probably never hit the gym" Shin smiled slightly and gave Shou his hand, then helped him standing up. " I found drunk Saga-san in the toilet and something felt off, because I couldn't wake him up. I will have to pay Taizo-san for his door..."


Shin finched, when Shou hugged him so tightly that Akihide almost lost his breath.


"Thank you" whispered Kazuma.


Shin laughed.


"You're welcome Shou-san" he said as Shou moved away from him. "Now let's go get Saga-san and go home. Shinya called me, saying that I should go home, because he's stuck in the bathroom and the electricity went off and he's a little scared. Too many horror movies, I think" said Shin as he walked through the lying door.


"How did you find us?" asked Shou.


"You yelled at Ruki. I'll know your voice everywhere, Shou-sama" replied Shin, smiling radiantly.


Yes, everything was back to normal.


The end

Wednesday, 12 October 2022

Phone number is out of date

Band: Alice Nine, Kagrra,

Pairing: Saga&Shou

Rating: 17+

Genre: slice of life

Warnings: based on a true story

Note: Saga finds something strange in Shou's phone. He would be even less confused, if it was about cheating or something like this.


 Saga entered the room and looked at Shou. He was so focused on manga that the bassist thought that Ivu could carry him along with the couch, and Ohara wouldn't even notice anything.


"Oi, Kazuma?" Saga talked to him.


Shou flinched and looked at the bassist a bit confused.


"Yes?"


"Can I call to Nao using your phone? Mine is doing weird stuff. I should go to phone service and ask them to fix it" sighed Saga.


"Of course, it's on the shelf" said Shou and returned to reading manga.


Saga took vocalist's phone and started to search for Nao's number.


"Nao, Nao, where are you?" asked Saga, cursing in mind Shou's phone's maker, who thought that it would be a good idea to sort contacs by add data, not by name.


He froze for a moment, when he saw something in katakana.


シノ


Saga looked at kana one more time. Yes, he was sure that he knows what it means.


He called Nao, who's number he finally found, and went to the room. Shou was still reading a manga.


"Thank you" Saga gave him back his phone. "Kazuma?"


"Yes?" Shou looked at him, annoyed.


He didn't like, when someone was wasting his time.


"Why you didn't delete Isshi's number?"


The manga fell to the floor with a thud. Shou sighed and didn't say anything.


"But Nao probably canceled his number a long time ago..."


"He didn't."


"Why?"


"Shino had some app which let him record original voice message for ten numbers. Somethimes... I like to call him, when I'm sad" explained Shou.


Saga looked at Shou's phone still laying on the sofa. He picked it and after a long moment found Isshi's number. He pressed a green handset and waited.


Hi, Kazuma. I can't talk with you now, but if you are calling for the third time or in a row, you may feel invited to the cafe for a cake. It can be even your favourite carrot cake. Leave a message after a singal, if you want. See you later.


Saga slowly lowered his hand with the phone. Even if he was often cold bastard, he just... wanted to cry.


Saga sat down next to Shou, bent down, picked up the manga and put it on the table.


"I can't believe that he's dead for so long already" whispered Shou. "I have the impression that I spoke to him yesterday."


Saga smiled gently and hugged Shou.


"I can take you to this cafe..."


"When I tried to enter this cafe last time, I almost burst in tears, so forgive me, but I have to deny" said Shou queitly.


"So we can go somewhere else. And if you don't want to, don't delete this number. I deleted it, I could hear only standard formula, not something like that" said Saga. "Come, I have to take you to the city before you'll make my sweater wet again."


Shou smiled a little and stood up, when Saga grabbed his hand.


"Let's go to the lake."


"I want to observe the clouds."


"The sky is always only thing that is interesting for you. And stars. And moon. Eventually the ceiling starts to wave."


"Sakamoto!"


Saga laughed, when Shou smacked his arm. Yes, he loved to tease him. And loved him too.


The end

Wednesday, 5 October 2022

Silver Moon, Black Star

Band: Alice Nine, Kagrra,

Pairing: Saga&Shou, Tora&Akiya, Nao(z Alisu)&Hiroto, Isshi&Nao(z Kagrry,), Izumi&Shin

Rating: 17+

Genre: angst

Warnings: based on a true story, death

Note: Shou knew that something was wrong. But he didn't know that it was such a serious situation.


 Shou was sitting in the dressing room. He was tired after the concert. He closed his eyes and laid down on the couch. At one point he heard Akiya's voice, who, from the sound that followed, probably jumped into Tora's arms, which Amano didn't quite expect, and flopped with his sweetheart on the floor.


"Great concert, Ashi!" called out Akiya.


Well, he always has been like that, when he was excited. And he called Tora this funny shortname.


Shou probably would fall asleep, if he wouldn't suddenly feel a hand on his shoulder. He opened his eyes. He saw Isshi smiling fondly while crouching down by the couch.


"Hey, Kazuma" Isshi laughed shortly. "How does it feel to do a solo gig at the Budokan?"


"Shinohara" Shou sat down and dusted himself off the invisible crumbs, then helped up Isshi who finally lost his balance and fell to the floor.


Both Naos were standing next to the door and were talking with Izumi and Saga. He also heard Hiroto's voice, who was telling enthusiastically about what happened. His listener was Shin.


Isshi sat down next to Shou and looked at him with a smile.


"So, Kazuma" started Isshi. "I have to admit that I'm proud of you. You've grown up a lot for these seven years."


Shou finched, when Isshi poked his nose.


"Next to me isn't sitting this Bunny without any self-confidence that I had to heal of his  complexes" said Isshi and hugged Shou. "We're really very proud of you. You are our worthy successors."


"Thank you" Said Shou finally allowed to speak, clenching his fingers on Isshi's left arm. "But we wouldn't be able to do anything without you."


"You're talking nonsense" Isshi smiled slightly, closing his eyes. "You could do it, I'm sure of it."


"Except it's because of you that I'm really here" Shou felt tears running down his cheeks, which he didn't want, but couldn't control his feelings.


"Don't cry" Isshi laughed shortly. "It is enough that my eyes are blurry."


Isshi pushed Shou away from him. He straightened his hair and wiped the tears from the younger vocalist's cheek with the back of his hand.


"Shinohara?"


"Yes?"


"Promise me that you'll always support me" Shou took Isshi's hands in his. "Promise me you'll always be my mentor."


Almost invisible sparks of fear flashed in Isshi's eyes.


"Kazuma" Isshi sighed. "I promise that even if I won't be by your side as a living human, I'm gonna stay with you as a spirit. Okay?"


Shou nodded. He turned around, feeling Nao's and Saga's eyes on himself.


"Shou, could you loyally let go of Shino's hands?" asked Nao. "You played a great concert, you got emotional, but..."


"But look, I told you that vocalists always have to cry like babies, you can't avoid it" Saga laughed.


"Saga, I can still punch you in the nose, I still have so much strength left" said Isshi, standing up.


"I don't think you're that old" Saga smiled slightly. "So, are we going to have a drink?"


"Just don't drink too much. I won't carry you" Shou nudged his shoulder.


"Same goes to you" said Nao to Isshi. "Even though I will have to be carried, too."


"You'll be wasted faster than me, your head is weaker, Yamiyo" said Isshi, to which Nao just snorted.


"Hitoshi Shinohara is proud of me. I went to heaven?" Shou thought as he passed Hiroto on the floor and a concerned Shin who was standing next to him.


He looked at Isshi. For some time he had the feeling that something was wrong. Something was bothering Isshi, he was sure of that. And this wasn't the upcoming Kagrra,'s disband. His friend certainly had a more serious problem. But Shou couldn't figure out, what that could be. But he thought that if Isshi didn't tell him, then he shouldn't ask.


* * *


Several months have passed. Shou was sitting in the kitchen and poured coffee, when he heard the doorbell. Saga left somewhere right after giving him a birthday present and making wishes, so the vocalist had to go open the door himself. Isshi was standing in the doorway with a box.


"Happy birthday, Kazuma!" Isshi smiled radiantly. "Can I go in?"


"Sure, come in" Shou let Isshi in. "You didn't have to come in person like that..."


"You say that every year, kid" Isshi laughed shortly. "Have Akiya and Tora already given you a gift?"


"Yes, I got it on the rehearsal yesterday."


"Well, here you have a cake and a card from Izumi and Shin" Isshi put the box and the envelope on the table, then took a smaller package out of the bag. "And this is from me and Yamiyo. We were careful to not break it."


Shou looked at Isshi. Recently, he had gotten a framed photo of them together, which he hung in the kitchen. What did Shinohara give him this time?


He gently unpacked the CD. To his amazement, he saw a limited edition of L'arc-en-ciel's album, which he didn't have yet on his shelf.


"Shino..." Shou didn't know, what to say. "Thank you!"


Isshi staggered as Shou almost knocked him over, jumping into his arms.


"Haven't I ever told you not to hop like that, Bunny?" asked Isshi. "Saga is gonna kill me when he hears the same songs for the twentieth time, huh?"


"I'll try to stop him" Shou smiled brightly.


"Okay, I have to go to the studio, it's time to work!" Isshi turned around and suddenly staggered so violently that if Shou wouldn't have caught him, he would probably have fallen over.


"Shino?" Shou looked at a slightly embarrassed Isshi. "What happened?"


"I felt dizzy, that's all" Isshi smiled gently. "Sometimes I do. It's okay now."


"Are you sure?" Shou looked at him with worry.


"Don't worry too much" Isshi stroked his head. "Do you have time to see me next week?"


"Sure" nodded Shou. "But are you sure you are okay?"


"Yes, silly Bunny" Isshi walked to the door. "The fact that someone has lost their balance doesn't immediately mean that the world is ending. See you next week, Kazuma."


"See you later" muttered Shou, closing the door behind Isshi.


His hunches grew stronger.


* * *


They met on July 16th in the cafe they always went to. They took the same chocolate coffee and the same cinnamon cookies again. They talked for quite a long time. About work, about everyday life, about music, about the weather, about animals. Just about anything they could.


"Kazuma?" Isshi suddenly said as they left the cafe. "You know you're one of my best friends?"


Shou trembled. On the one hand, he felt honored by the confession, but on the other, his premonitions had reached its apogee. Something was definitely wrong.


"You're my friend too" Shou smiled slightly.


They started talking again. Something strange was in the air.


They stopped outside of Isshi's house. Nao was waiting in the doorway, stroking Otaki's head.


"Take care, Kazuma" Isshi hugged Shou suddenly.


"You too, Shino" Shou didn't know that next week...


...he would wake up on the sofa in the studio and would be looking at Tora sitting beside him with the glass of water.


"Are you feeling better?" asked Tora, handing him a drink. "I had no idea you were going to pass out. Hiroto started to cry, Nao took him home because he was starting to get hysterical."


"And Sakamoto?"


"He went out to smoke. I'm sorry, Shou, I should convey this to you in a gentler way."


The door opened slightly and Saga appeared.


"Erm, Kazuma" Saga walked to them and bit his lower lip. "I smell of smoke a little, but if you want a hug, then..."


Saga froze as Shou knocked him to the floor and just burst out into a terrible sob. Saga sighed, trying to calm his own tears from his eyes, then gently twisted his fingers into Shou's hair.


"Don't cry" he only whispered, realizing that these two words would not glue his beloved's heart, which had shattered to pieces that day.


The end